I missed you

I miss everybody because i have bad aim and the recoil doesn't help either.

My grandmother, I feel like a cunt every time I think of her too, she was in a hospice with terminal cancer, I went to see her and she was barely recognizable, she was skin and bones. We were informed that it wouldn't be long, when I left I gave her a hug and kiss and mentally said goodbye just in case I didn't see her again.

I was washing my hair to visit her again the next day when my mum shouted up the stairs thatthey got a call and we needed to leave now and that she was dying, selfishly, I froze and I just couldn't go.

Everyone was there when she died apart from me because I was selfish and couldn't face it, so I miss her, and I'll never forgive myself for that.

I miss my dog Molly, we had her for 14 years, I miss my once best friend ryan and a load of missed oppertunities

I miss the man I use to be...

A medical profesional.

This girl I was good friends with for years. Man I wish I could have tapped it. Too late she's fat now...

Gahhh I miss my Granddad.

He was an avid cricket fan and he would always try and give me advice I wouldn't listen to!

2 weeks ago I hit my first 100, which is a huge achievement for those who don't understand the sport. I just wished he was there to see it :'(

RIP Gramps viva Trinidad

I also miss friends that I ended up losing contact with.

There was this really interesting girl I met in English class last semester. I wonder what she's up to. She was such an interesting person.

I once had a really close friend, she had to leave the country. Contact was strained by the distance and eventually it stopped altogether.

I miss my dad :'( He died of heart complications a few years ago.

My best friend. Ah, the fun we had.

My dog. :'(

My step grandma who died from cancer and I never got to say goodbye. There were days I treated her pretty poorly too that I regret.. She has done a lot for me. I have a lot of good memories with her. She wasn't perfect and my mom wasn't her biggest fan, but she was an awesome granny to me.

I also miss all of my friends from elementary school, and a few from middle school.

My first cat whom I was a cunt to. He was left in Ukraine after I moved to America. He ended up dying from some sort of bad water poisoning.

I also miss my fish Dustina. Who survived extreme falls from the refrigerator. She had to put up with my cat's harassment also. Died too soon for my liking.

I miss my dog, Blackie. My family got her when she was two years old in the summer of 1998. She died in the summer of 2012.

A very dear friend who killed himself a few years back.

Home, and the people that entails: my mum, dad, brother and dog. I don't usually miss home, but I'm going home in a few days and that has got me thinking about home more than usual. I also miss my primary love interest. We were fuckbuddies for a few months but she never wanted a relationship with me. When she got a boyfriend we drifted out of each other's lives. It sucks, because she was almost perfect for me and I've never liked another person as much as I liked her.

Muammar Gaddafi and Sadam Hussain.

Grandparents...
Mostly about my Grandfather. He had a heart attack and died in front of me. I was a kid. I was in shock! Having the best grandfather just fall down and never wake up again... He was a man with a heart of gold. Taught me so many things about life. About cars, about everything. I loved him so much. All my other grandparents passed away too, but at least they didn't die in front of me...
And for two of my grandparents deaths, shitty doctors were to blame! Doctors didn't come on time. Doctors failed to act properly.

I hope those doctors rot for the rest of their pathetic, worthless lives!