I miss feeling bad

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I used to be really depressed, anxious and deeply in love with a married man. I'm on meds now, my depression is gonne ane my anxiety is a LOT better than it used to. now i basically don't feel anything anymore. I dont feel happy, sad, in love,.. i just feel like a plant. Is it strange that i miss feeling so screwed and fucked? I'm not saying i want these things to come back, i just miss the misery and pain. Anyone else?

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  • snoopmoth
    6 years ago

    I had this problem and I told my therapist, she said "if you want to be depressed, you probably already are depressed." Feeling nothing is also a part of depression. I would consider talking about increasing or changing your meds. If you JUST started your meds though give it some time.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      6 years ago

      Hello, thanks for the comment! I saw her about 6 months ago because the anxiety meds stopped working (its anti-depressives and helps for anxiety too) she told me to go on therapy classes before changing meds. I did and increased the dose as she told me to. I feel ok now, like i said, because i can cope with it. But like you said, i sometimes catch myself wondering if im really feeling fine after all. I just don't know how i have to tell my parents that i want to see her again. They know my anxiety got better and they're not really supportive in this. Or should i just secretly meet her? SORRY for the long text.

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      • snoopmoth
        6 years ago

        No problem! How old are you? Generally people with mental illness stay in therapy for a while if not forever and see their psychiatrist regularly. It depends how not supportive they are I guess. If you think you can explain to them how you feel and what you're thinking, and they don't react in a horrible way then you should. It's hard to say what is the best idea without knowing your parents. Depends on why they aren't supportive too.

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        • Anonymous Post Author
          6 years ago

          I'm 19 now. I've been suffering from this since i was 13, but i didn't tell anyone untill i was 15. I can't really tell why they are this way, my mom doesn't truelly lisen when i tell her about this, she would just pretend everything is ok. She doesn't accept that i am this way. She would just try to make me think it's stress and fill things in the way she wants. When i told my dad, he just laughed in my face, he tells me i don't need medication because i will overcome this when i go hiking and climb a mountain with him..... i mretty much don't talk to them about this anymore because of these reactions

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          • snoopmoth
            6 years ago

            I'm so sorry, that's really difficult. I've had the experience where my parents didn't take me seriously at all, I was told the same thing about the hiking. Sometimes it takes a long time for people to wake up and understand what's going on. If it's possible for you to see a psychologist in any way, I would do it. Seek and get help in whatever way you can. Hopefully, your parents will come around.

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  • edreams
    6 years ago

    its the meds tell doctor you are devoid of any feelings they will regulate the meds

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      6 years ago

      Thanks for the comment! I didn't think of it being the meds in the first place. The problem is that they're anti-depresives but work for my anxiety too. I'm scared it will get back when i stop taking them. But i should probally just discuss this with her :) thanks for the tip!

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      • edreams
        6 years ago

        your quite welcome

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  • bm410775
    6 years ago

    I can understand your point of view. I am not trying to get all religious or anything, but as 2 Nephi 2 states, "For it must needs be, that there is an opposition in all things. If not so, my firstborn in the wilderness, righteousness could not be brought to pass, neither wickedness, neither holiness nor misery, neither good nor bad. Wherefore, all things must needs be a compound in one; wherefore, if it should be one body it must needs remain as dead, having no life neither death, nor corruption nor incorruption, happiness nor misery, neither sense nor insensibility". Without misery or sadness, there is no joy. We just stay in a state of emptiness for a long time.

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