I make up stories in my head... is that normal?
I have the weirdest little habit. As if my brain weren't over-active enough i make up all these crazy scenarios in my head. I actually sat down one day and tried to find an explanation as to why i do it, and i couldn't. I'll just be sitting all alone and my mind will drift off into some perfect world where my boyfriend doesn't think i'm crazy and i can sing without my voice cracking like a teenage boy going through puberty. It's not fantasizing. No, fantasizing is normal. I would be absolutely positive that this wasn't normal if i hadn't heard somewhere that making up such things in your head keeps you from going crazy. I'm beginning to think it's a little too late... Just recently for example, i made one up about the day i would get back home and see my boyfriend (I'm on "vacation" right now with my un-bearable family) for the first time in forever. The majority of our relationship has been long distance because he asked me out just before we left. Sometimes i think these stories are going to ruin things between us because in every scenario i make up he's perfect and charming and such a gentleman. I doubt he can live up to the expectations I've fabricated in my head, therefore when i see him i'll be nothing but disappointed. I feel like by making up all these bull poop scenarios i'm only subconsciously raising my expectations to heights reality will never be able to reach, thus leaving my self constantly disappointed. Jeez i sound like some crazy therapist lady right now don't i? Eh, now you know what my brain is like, babbling and nonsensical and crazy. Just like me :)