I made a horrible mistake

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I have been close to this person for nearly five years now, and I care about him very much. I haven’t been doing very well these past couple of years, and I have attempted suicide on multiple occasions that didn’t result in serious injury. A couple months ago, he asked me how I was doing and I completely broke down and told him everything. However, I made a horrible mistake and I told him that I was in the hospital for a couple of days for attempting suicide recently. The second I told him, I immediately regretted it. It was a complete lie and I didn’t even mean to say it, it just sort of came out. I wanted to take it back as soon as I saw the expression on his face but it was too late. I feel disgusting to this day, and every time I talk to him I feel an immense sense of guilt. What should I do? I really love and trust this person and I want to be honest and open so he doesn’t have to be so worried about me, but I also really worry about losing our friendship if I tell him that I lied about such a serious event.

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  • andithoughtiwasweird
    5 years ago

    but u have attempted it, so it is not really a lie

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  • sissycakes
    5 years ago

    I always feel like with communication things should be better. I worry about stuff that does not even matter, and I feel like in the scheme of things this will not matter as much. It depends on what type of person they are. I am always wondering if the person will listen or write me off. I bet they will not write you off, but you can always explain in time when things are better. You have not got to worry about what you said- just worry about making them happy and be happy yourself.

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  • Bajazzles
    5 years ago

    Just tell him you attempted but no one found out. Maybe you only told him you were hospitalized so he thought people knew and so he wouldn't feel the need to tell people about it. But you tell him now that that was a lie, because you don't want to lie to him. I know it's covering a bigger lie with a smaller lie but whatever.

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  • Sacksize
    5 years ago

    Tell him. He will find out one way or another. He will have more respect for you now if you tell him than if he finds out on his own. I’m sure he will be displeased at first but you were obviously in a bad spot and needed someone to care. I feel that you were seeking attention that you dearly needed. Hopefully he will understand and forgive you.

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  • RoseIsabella
    5 years ago

    Why did you make up a baldfaced lie?

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      5 years ago

      I don’t know why or where the lie even came from, it just kind of came out in the heat of the moment.

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      • RoseIsabella
        5 years ago

        Well, something must have been up for you to just spurt out a lie like that.

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