I'm straight but for 5 years i think i was infatuated or was it love?

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Up until I turned 16 I had only developed crushes on guys.
Hit high school, I became friends with this new girl who I thought was really cool.
She was basically the opposite of me. I recall I used to go to pick up the phone to ring her and my heart would beat so hard and fast I'd have to wait to calm down before I could talk to her. Yes she made me super nervous and intrigued me but in heinsight I have no idea why?
She wasn't anything amazing at the end of the day.
With having said that, I couldn't get her off my mind for years and all I wanted to do was be around her.
I did feel a lot of love for her over time and I was always there for her.
I have never been a sexual person and I never visualized having sex or anything but I didn't like her flirting with guys and vice versa. I got so jealous and I thought wtf is wrong with me??

To cut a lot going story short, I feel like I'm asexual but I am pretty sure there were romantic feelings for this person...
I did find her really attractive on the beginning too

Was this love or infatuation ?

Is infatuation always sexual in nature?

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  • CDmale4fem
    6 years ago

    I have found also the platonic friends that there was just things we had in common, could talk about most anything, and like you said, really understood each other. I don't think I ever had a same sex crush. I have had the same sex infatuation that I pretty much kept to myself.

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  • bayng
    6 years ago

    This happened to me at 14. It was my first same sex crush and as soon as I met them and spent time with them I thought I was a homosexual. This continued for about 3 years, I was totally in love with them and didn't want anyone else that entire time. Now I'm over it and I get crushes on the opposite sex all the time. Before I didn't really, but I was quite young and had little interest in sex.

    For both your case and mine, I do think there was a level of infatuation, but only you know if it was love.

    I'm not educated enough on the topic, but I don't believe it is always sexual in nature at all. I say this from personal experience. I have experienced platonic infatuation I think.

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