I'm sexually attracted to immortan joe, help me

This is not a joke or some weirdo taking the piss or something. A week ago I watched the movie Mad Max Fury Road. I did not let myself think about him that night but I had a dream in which I had very painful, nonconsensual relations with Immortan Joe. He brutalized me horribly, the mask still on. I could feel the tubes against my skin and hear him breathing as he racked me up and used me. I woke up very excited but I brushed the thought away. Later in the week this whole thing still wasn't off my mind. I started searching for Immortan Joe fanfiction. And reading it and enjoying it. It has now been a week and I don't know how to get these thoughts out of my mind. I should not think about being this man's breeder or his wife or his kept girl. But I do. I think about how gross he is and how he enslaved those poor women but it makes me want him more somehow. For those unfamiliar.. He's got a lot of blisters on his back, wears a mask with horse teeth on it and covers himself all over in a fine white powder to ease up on pain/sores from sweat. He takes women to use as livestock and brands his people like cattle. I even think about him doing that to me. I want him to let Furiosa at me, to be her reward for a war party gone right. I cannot make sense of this.