I'm self-disciplined, then rarely, i completely lose it. help?

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Since early high school I have been under the influence of depression and anger management. I'm alright now, and generally in good control of myself and my emotions. One thing I know I suffer from is paranoia/anxiety when it comes to trusting people. I have a very tight and small group of friends that I don't doubt for a second, but the rest of my friends - and people that I newly meet or know at a distance - I have trouble trusting and liking. I can live with that, I'm sure, although it does make relationships with people a little difficult. Anyway, that's info, because the real problem is that sometimes I completely lose it to a point where reality escapes me. I feel terrified of death but at the same time it feels like the only option because nothing in life seems worth it. In these moments I get extremely upset and stressed, I don't think and consider overdosing and stupid things like that. I have absolutely zero judgement when I get like this. When these moments pass, I tend to look back on them and shrug them off because I suddenly feel as though I've overreacted and that it won't happen ever again.
I don't have a single clue what's wrong with me, they really are so unexpected, almost like I bottle something up that I'm not aware of and then just snap. I'm only just cooling from it today, gaining my motivation back and starting to function happier.
Help please?

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  • TareBear20
    9 years ago

    Sometimes it's just harder to cope. It all depends on your current state of mind. Sleep deprivation can most definitely mess with your head as well, so try and rest up. This is perfectly normal. I used to trust people too easily and that's where I messed up in life, because I learned the hard way that most people can not be trusted. I have issues with keeping in touch with my friends now, because I distance myself all the time. I used to always be there for everyone and now you'll be lucky to get a reply from me the same day you message me. This is just something that kind of developed after I lost everything that mattered at the time. I think it's normal to have suicidal thoughts and urges, but please don't act on it. The world would be short one more great personality, which is terrible, because you'll meet plenty of people who will appreciate and accept your anxieties and quirks. It won't always be a great time, but just think about how lucky you are to be alive and all of which you have access to, like technology. During times of high anxiety or stress, just remind yourself that it's all in your head and you have a grip on it.

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    • Shahla18
      9 years ago

      That's helped a lot. thank you! :)

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  • Arm0se
    9 years ago

    Ask one of your close friends for a hug. It sounds silly but really does help. Btw I voted not normal by accident. I meant to click normal and my mouse slipped.

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    • Shahla18
      9 years ago

      Good idea, actually.. I'll see if that helps haha. Thank you :)

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