I'm pushing 20 and have never had a job and have no license?

I'll be 20 in less than 2 months, and I've never had a formal job. Honestly the most work I ever did was when I was <12 as a girlscout/church "waitress", and obviously none of that was paid.

When I was 15 I searched for a job, but the laws in my state make it difficult for anyone under 16 to get one. I became severely anorexic at that time, and my school reported me to CPS, who forbade my school to allow me to attend and had me hospitalized on and off throughout the year, and I had to visit a doctor a few times a year and I narrowly avoided a threat of forced 2k/day rehab by putting moneyweights in my pants to be weighed...

Then I recovered on my own over a process until I was almost 18 when I began mensturating again etc, but my parents were always bitter I sent them 10s of thosuands (yes, multiple 10ks, im not sure how many) into debt w/my forced anorexia treatment. part of the cost was mutliple doctor's visits each week.

Now I'm 19 and in summer school headed into my Jr. Year (In my state I was meant to be going into my sophmore by birthdate, but did "jump start" in high school so I'm a year ahead, the only good thing anorexia gave me) and I feel pathetic for hving never wroked, and I know how people look down on those who don't, and am considering suicide in a "serious" way again like I haven't since i was 15. =/

Very difficult, rly guilty, especially since I know I won't follow through with any suicide plans, but am scred I wont' fall through w/my plans to get a jb next week anyway.

Also, I've tried learning to drive since I turned 16... I've driven hundreds of hours and still suck for some reason. I've even taken pro lessons. Last time I tried driving I RAN INTO ANOTHER CAR ON THE FREEWAY. Feels dumb.

Luckily I finally moved out from waaaaay out in teh country to an urban environment so taht I am actually WALKING DISTANCE from jobs.

but still this feeling of patheticness that I'm this old previals, and I am embarrassed to go to them and say, hey I've never worked, yep I'm a resource mooch....

IDK, sorry if this is to "begging for sympathy vibe" but I did some googlign and google "almost 20, enver had a job" and you'll see, all links are full of peopel who go, wow, you are really lazy, waste of space etc and blah blah ive been working since i was 12 blah and I've creid for the last 5ish hours meh

no one will read this far lol....

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Comments ( 18 )
  • I'm 21 and have no job or licence either. I did intend to go to college etc. but I ended up suffering with depression and social anxiety, so that was a big part of my not being able to cope in a work enviroment.

    I do get scared that I'll never be able to survive on my own but I know someday I'll get to where I'm meant to be. Just keep hoping and if you do suffer from any sort of illness, seek help.

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  • babe7575

    Relax! So many people are like you. Don't worry about fitting in. Its overrated. focus on doing something... anything.
    & don't lie to get a job. don't change the person you are. I am sure you are great!

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  • TheGuruOfTheSauce

    fuck everyone else you're just going to have to try harder to get one than the average drone bee. Try to get into landscaping or work at a circus type of place. Mcdonalds is always hiring and if you want to try and organize your life join the military because chances are people will tell you at shitty jobs that you're too inexperienced to stock a shelf or roll food over a scanner. sweet catch 22 I know, I'm assuming some people must be born with these skills. Its all about being a good bullshitter anyways

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  • Im 19 now

    Never had a job... Why start now when all of my life I'll be working
    No license.. No point in having one if i don't own a car
    waste of time

    Yea I'm lazy & play video games...who cares? Everybody is jealous of me

    HAHA •_•

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  • SassyFrassyLassie_old

    You are only 19 years old, you still have at least 40 more productive adult years ahead of you to work on those things, there's no rush.

    Research some support groups in your area. The costs to go to them are minimal and you seem like you could use some feedback with your anorexia and depression.

    When you apply for jobs, tell them how you triumphed over your illness and you're looking to make a fresh start. You don't have to tell them how you were ill though, that's your business, not theirs - if they ask, just say you'd like to keep that part private. Employers want reliable (people who don't show up late or call in sick all the time) workers that will do the job efficiently without a lot of complaining. If you can show them that you can do that, there's no reason why they shouldn't hire you.

    Good luck. And don't worry about learning to drive, just stay calm and practice until you feel comfortable with it. It'll come, have patience.

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  • joemommamia

    Don't worry so much - I would hire you in an instant if I new who you were. You can get a license but if you live in a big city you may not even need it. Get a passport instead.

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  • cherrybomb21

    everyone goes at their own pace and you obviously had a few hurtles in the way of easily getting a job, lisence, etc. don't be so hard on yourself, forgive yourself for the debt that was created and start to believe that you're not pathetic. whether you believe you can or can't do something, you are right, so try to have a positive attitude about your life and things will eventually fall into place.

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  • uhhh don't give fake info, not good idea
    Try to get a job where your dad/mom works at
    and for the license, dont let social pressure annoy you

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  • jermath35

    Put in 50 applications 5 will call u back..,lie on your application tell them you worked before they never check... Put fake info... U need a job so u will have money to get things u need.... Your a great person please don't kill yourself!!!

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  • Msg12456

    I'm in the same boat. I'm going to be 20 in 2 months, no licence(mainly due to severe axiety whenever I even think of driving, but I've when to the DMV and tried but fell short) and never had a formal job (live kind of when by fast,I've always be so focused on school and not having a license). I'm in college and I'm going to be on my own next year, plus my parents are pressuring me to get one even thought I've applied to almost everywhere in this small college town within walking/biking distance. Its all stressing me out big time. I'm definitely a late bloomer in life.

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  • RoyRogers

    I not been able to hold a steady job and I have put in over 300 applications already.

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  • Wh0Ar3YoU

    Im 20 and in college. I live with my parents as do many other people my age that I know. I have a car and a licence.No problem there. I receive financial aid to pay for personal things or books,etc. My main problem is I dont have a job and pretty much 0 social life. Not even my "real" friends call me to go out with them anymore.I haven't had a job in 3-4 years. I think I suffer from mild social anxiety. I dread just thinking working as a cashier. Can't do it. I wonder what my future awaits

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  • Avant-Garde

    It'll get better.

    But why one earth would you be reported due to your weight? I don't get it... Your weight should be your business and no one else's. They shouldn't have been allowed to force you into treatment. That's really fucked up.

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  • cupcakeswanqueen

    You just gotta keep your head up:)

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  • St.Clair59

    Hey...I didn't get my license till like a few weeks before my 21st birthday. Whenever you feel ready to get your license you'll get it. Just keep working hard at driving and it will happen.

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  • soccer2

    If u could get past the stuff u described then u can get a job. Start somewhere easy like being a cashier or something. If u r ahead in school then that's great u have a step up from everyone else ur age and that might show employers that u r hard working. As for the drivingg thing all u can do is practice and think positively. I hope it works out

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  • geek_god_101

    Must be a late bloomer. Keep trying and you should be able to obtain a driver's license and acquire a job. Market is tough and if you have a degree, you will be better off. Don't be on welfare or SSDI though, that is lack of integrity.

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  • DcMithra

    get a life

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