I'm pushing 20 and have never had a job and have no license?
I'll be 20 in less than 2 months, and I've never had a formal job. Honestly the most work I ever did was when I was <12 as a girlscout/church "waitress", and obviously none of that was paid.
When I was 15 I searched for a job, but the laws in my state make it difficult for anyone under 16 to get one. I became severely anorexic at that time, and my school reported me to CPS, who forbade my school to allow me to attend and had me hospitalized on and off throughout the year, and I had to visit a doctor a few times a year and I narrowly avoided a threat of forced 2k/day rehab by putting moneyweights in my pants to be weighed...
Then I recovered on my own over a process until I was almost 18 when I began mensturating again etc, but my parents were always bitter I sent them 10s of thosuands (yes, multiple 10ks, im not sure how many) into debt w/my forced anorexia treatment. part of the cost was mutliple doctor's visits each week.
Now I'm 19 and in summer school headed into my Jr. Year (In my state I was meant to be going into my sophmore by birthdate, but did "jump start" in high school so I'm a year ahead, the only good thing anorexia gave me) and I feel pathetic for hving never wroked, and I know how people look down on those who don't, and am considering suicide in a "serious" way again like I haven't since i was 15. =/
Very difficult, rly guilty, especially since I know I won't follow through with any suicide plans, but am scred I wont' fall through w/my plans to get a jb next week anyway.
Also, I've tried learning to drive since I turned 16... I've driven hundreds of hours and still suck for some reason. I've even taken pro lessons. Last time I tried driving I RAN INTO ANOTHER CAR ON THE FREEWAY. Feels dumb.
Luckily I finally moved out from waaaaay out in teh country to an urban environment so taht I am actually WALKING DISTANCE from jobs.
but still this feeling of patheticness that I'm this old previals, and I am embarrassed to go to them and say, hey I've never worked, yep I'm a resource mooch....
IDK, sorry if this is to "begging for sympathy vibe" but I did some googlign and google "almost 20, enver had a job" and you'll see, all links are full of peopel who go, wow, you are really lazy, waste of space etc and blah blah ive been working since i was 12 blah and I've creid for the last 5ish hours meh
no one will read this far lol....