I'm psychologically messed up

I can relate to looking younger. I am 24 and I maybe look 20, maybe. It is good that you don't want to commit suicide. I have tried multiple times. It isn't that easy. Most of the time people are just crying for help anyways. Just keep trying to move forward, and if you can't really do that then just keep existing and keep hope that someday you will find some sort of peace of mind and purpose.

You are only 18! The age people just start to realize what they want to do and be in life. The age you will discover the good and bad. The things you can and can not do. What you are good at and what you suck at. So it is totally normal that you do not know what you want to do for a career. I think that the girl you are talking about has hurt your feelings so bad that you lost your self esteem. I can promiss you that you will get over it some day and it will get better. You will find the girl of your dreams, if it is this girl or another, when you least expect it. Nothing will be pointles at the end.

Build your image as another poster stated. If you have issues with facial acne research low cost dermatological solutions. If you are lacking in manhood join PE thunder forums or something; figure out a work plan for the gym or home for the sake of your overall appearance. Even simple core exercises like planks, push ups and sit ups will help trim the baby fat and make you look more manly.

Change your wardrobe, get a conservative haircut. Don't dress like a damn kid and you won't look so much like a damn kid.

There are plenty of women out there (not girls) who are into sexing young men like you; consider a relationship outside of your age range though she will be the one in the power position. Lose your boy cherry at all cost, never mind your damn 'feelings'.

Realize that no matter how close you may feel to others, ultimately you do not control their actions or thoughts. Emotional entanglement is an illusion, an abstract idea. Once you learn to let go and let others simply be, you will be happier with yourself.

On that note, stop feeling sorry for your damn yourself; that is a total turn off for anyone unless you run into someone who is into a 'comfort' fetish.

You mentioned college. Granted you are a US local, if you are in a private college and had to sign up for loans, chances are once you graduate (and even if you don't) your student debt will be so substantial that you may never be able to repay it in your lifetime, no mater if you land a modest job. Start learning another language like Chinese, German, or Russian; you will need it if you ever figure forfeiting your US citizenship and moving to another country is your only way to escape a massive debt that cannot be legally canceled and can never be fully repaid within your means.

There is plenty to do in this life. Even if you absolutely lack motivation for all things, you still serve a useful function in the greater scope of things. Rest assured in the knowledge that even if you are miserable throughout your entire life someone, somewhere, may enjoy witnessing or contributing to your suffering.

At the very least realize that girl you were close to probably derived immense pleasure from playing games with your head; this is standard sport for women of all ages, all races. Part of becoming a man is recognizing these games and putting a stop to them before they can take place or playing it up as to turn the tides in your favor.

But getting back to your physical issues, consult with a doctor about growth hormone therapy; you may have a legitimate medical issue going on.

Bitches love knowledge guy/girl? Heck I don't even know what gender you are but you do sound interesting to talk to. no homo

You're not alone. There are people who feel like you, and people who look younger than they actually are, too. Just be YOURSELF. Don't worry too much about girls right now. You can definitely make friends just by being yourself. Looks aren't everything, and just because you look younger that doesn't mean you look bad. It will actually be very beneficial to you in the future. :) Try to make friends. Find people with similar interests. Let your true self shine through the way you look. Personally, I think the way I look and who I really am are a bit contrasting, so I can relate to people judging me for how I look. Overall though you just need to not be afraid to show people who you really are! You'll be surprised what great friends you can make just by being real. And, I'm sure at your school there's plenty of people who would be willing to be there for someone like you who feels like they have no one to go. I hope things get better for you. x

You need a diet higher in fat and protein and work out. That will spike the testosterone and make you feel more manly.
That girl has put you in the proverbial friend zone so if you want to date her avoid spending so much time with her as "the friend". Soon she'll cry on your shoulder because some asshole treats her bad and you don't want that. Hint: it's not a shortcut to her pants.
Ignore her completely. Who knows after you change she'll come back to you by herself.

I am not sure if I can say anything that would be of much help but I am also 18 and I feel like this all the time minus the having a friend thats a girl. I constantly belittle myself because I feel worthless. the only thing that has helped with that is I start out with something I know I am good at and say I can do this because I am Sonic Motherfucking 1754 but with my real name. eventually you start saying it with enthusiasm and it will become somewhat like a habit. So eventually you say I am so sad and lonely however will I make through the day. Its so long. Then you say I can make through the day. Do you know why? BECAUSE I'm SONIC MOTHERFUCKING 1754. Anyway your not alone. At least you can talk to a woman I am a failure in that regard.

You might be my long lost sibling, I understand where your coming from. Forget about other people and what they think, set yourself free and happiness will flow you way. Just be comfortable with who you are, and other people will come to respect you and you'll have friends.

Peace, my brother.

Sounds like my life :(

your probably ugly so just google pictures of even uglier people and boost your self-esteem via comparison ^_-

First of all, don't kill yourself.. PLEASE. Truth is, we all go through tough times, myself included. Looking young isn't even that bad, a lot of people go through much worse. I don't know why you would want to talk to that girl after she treated you so horribly. But, it shows you are a good person that you can look past her faults and still want to be friends with her. Focus on the big picture. One day you'll die and then hopefully spend an eternity in heaven. Life on Earth is such a small drop in the ocean compared to eternity.

Suicide isn't selfish. Wanting to keep a suicidal individual around against their will is.

Best thing you can do about looking young is learn to joke about it. And let people joke with you. People respect that.

Hey :) if you are sad, alone, and otherwise feel "not normal" then you are in good company. Most of us here have our flaws, and most of us want to help other people through their issues by giving them support and advice. At least I do.

My advice to you? A lot of people have no idea what they want to do. Focus on what you like, and pursue it from there! Eventually, after mulling it over, you will find something that ignites your fire. Don't lose hope. We are all very young in reality, so you have plenty of time:)

Your appearance? I know it can seem like it means a lot, but really, a great personality can overshadow nearly everything. You gotta own that shit :) confidence is sexy. Take some time to focus on YOU and think about who you want to be...and then work toward that, both mentally and physically. It will be long, but from my experience, it is worth it.

If you want, listen to a song called Strange Comfort by the Color Morale. It's insightful to me whenever I feel down. Take care you:) I'm here if you need me!

This is long, sorry! Go out there and be awesome.