I'm not sleeping or eating too well.

Okay
Life is really, really boring
And I'm beginning to not eat anymore
And since life is so effing boring
I get really tired
But I can stay awake throughout a whole entire night
'Cause I know nothing will be there for me that I care about in the morning when I wake up
I felt like I tasted life to the fullest
And now everything is just like, "Oh.. Haha".
YEAH
That
Fucking
Boring
I AM bored out of my fucking mind
Nothing is interesting anymore
Everyday. The same thing
It's been like this my whole life
I've enjoyed life way too much
I'm beginning to ignore my feelings
I've begun to stop thinking about things
I stop caring about things I used to care for
I ain't depressed.
Everything just seems so worthless living for
I felt as if I were happy
I would still be sad
'Cause this loneliness is so unreal
I feel as if like, I'd talk to him..
He'd still hang out with other girls
But you know, him and me.. It's like right where we should be.. when I open my arms, I wanna embracee
Right where we should be..
It's a life full of lighht when he's right there for me.
But I think about him,
Wonder what's on his mind
Yet I feel as if I don't even know him.
I feel as if he'd shield me away.. to hide the truth..
But I wanna know..
I wanna know what he's hiding..
Oh fuck, I've loved him so long.
But does that even matter?
Oh why?
I don't know why I share myself like this. But one thing I know that is that I don't care when it comes to people I love I'll scream it to the whole effing world
BTW I have like no motivation to eat sleep or anything anymore. If I do sleep I won't get up 'cause I wanna sleep. Okay AM I JUST FUCKING LAZY