I'm not crazy!

i have no friends, well i used to have friends but i got bored. the friends i had seem to be not very genuine so i dumped 'em- now i have nada- that's none in Spanish i think. anyways, now i'm alone and i go to work, then watch tv until i fall asleep just to start the day all over again. when i am sad or very bored or felling sicky, stressed, or angry or mad or depressed or anything negetive i just masturbate, other times its just a sleeping aid. the problem is recently i've been masturbating more and more often. i can't help it. it's my only escape from the harsh, wicked, evil, cruel real world. the doorway to the other realm is now seemly becoming a negative impact on my life- once a month or week was ok but 3 times a day is ridiculous! i'm now crazy am i?

i'm this normal person i think
- you think about it- some people smoke, or drink, or eat. yes, i know get some friends, but believe me, if you're picky about the type of friends you keep then you should have a problem; then again you're not me. ok, go to the clubs, i am not a party animal, church? not a religious hell, demons, heaven hallelujah type either. go to the family- nope, i'm different that say. so here i am stuck. but.. i am not crazy... i'm i?