I'm jealous of women who are pregnant or have a baby
The thought of someone else getting the opportunity to get to create the other human being with their lovers, make me think no fair why didn't this happen to me? When people talks about how it's the great feeling getting to hold their babies for the first time and I'm like I never got to have those feeling. When would it be my turn? I think. I'm also jealous of my boyfriend ex wife because she had the baby with him. Thinking of her pregnant and bare foot in his house and them in the hospital giving birth to him. I try to keep those thoughts out of my head. I might fly down to the Philippines to visit my boyfriend next month and stay at his house. And if he get me pregnant I won't care because that what I want. I want to have the experience of having someone I love child.