I'm in love with my identical twin brother

My name is Ian. I've always been really close to my older twin brother. He's always looked out for me and helped me deal with people since he's way more out-going and...well, a bit of a narcissist actually...Let's just say he's VERY confident. Ethan is usually a jerk to everyone, except me. We were always in our own little world and didn't really let others in. I've been in love with him since we were kids...I've always only wanted him. But last year he started dating this flaky girl in our theater class. They got really intimate, really fast and it pissed me off. I was jealous and angry and I was completely horrible to her. I loathed it when he would bring her home when our mom was gone (which was often) and fuck around with her on pretty much any surface available. He knew I hated her, and he flaunted her around just to irritate me. He knew I was jealous. Ethan ALWAYS knew. It was like he was playing with me, seeing just how riled up I could get before I snapped...and that only took about two months. I think I completely lost it, because Ethan is much stronger than me and I punched him anyway and slammed him up against one of the big bookshelves in the living room, books rained down on us, and I shouted for him to get "the whore out of my house". She got all pissy and expected Ethan to defend her, when he just grinned and shrugged she stormed out.

When she was gone he just SMIRKED at me...like he always smirked at me when he was victorious at some game only he was aware of playing. I asked him what was so damn funny and he raised an eyebrow in that annoyingly conceited way that only he's capable of and practically purred "About damn time you showed your true colors, little brother."

I flinched and let him go and told him not to call me little brother anymore. He told me he'd call me whatever the hell he wanted to because I belonged to him and that he would do whatever he wanted to me as well. He walked closer and I instinctively stepped back, but he kept coming toward me until I felt the sofa against my legs. He smirked again and hooked his finger into the hem of my pants. The button of my jeans was suddenly undone and Ethan licked his lips and said one simple word. "Strip." That completely stunned me. As if that wasn't enough he slid his fingers down my pants, unzipping them and I knew he felt how hard I was already.

He said I was too eager and that he'd tease me before he let me cum because otherwise it wouldn't be a punishment for my violence from before and that my first time would always be remembered as the time I was fucked by my twin brother.

He kept his word. He didn't let me cum for hours, until I begged for it. Then he let me rest for a bit, only to take me again in the kitchen and in the shower, then our bedroom. He didn't let me sleep at all that night...The next morning we both had class and before we got out of the car he pulled me in close to him and whispered, "I love you too, by the way, you idiot." and kissed me...really softly, before laughing and telling me how red my cheeks were and that I better straighten up or someone would catch on.

Ethan dumped his girlfriend and we've been in a romantic relationship for ten months now...it's fantastic. No one knows except our best friends Ashleigh and Morgan. They said they had been expecting this to happen for years and congratulated us. I know that no one else would be alright with mine and Ethan's relationship, but I don't care. Our mother's not really involved much and other than her we have no family. So if we move somewhere no one knows us we can have a life together. And no one gets hurt.

I love my twin brother and I love belonging to him....It's the happiest I've ever been.

Thanks for letting me rant.