I'm impossible to love

At 18, you might not want to hear it, but it's probably better for you to focus on making a great future and life for yourself independent of other people.

Friends come naturally as you progress through life. If you obsess over social interactions, it will be very difficult to find friends, so see if there is anything your therapist can do to help you with the social anxiety.

Another thing to keep in mind is that friends will come and go. Most people don't stay in your life forever, and if you become entirely dependent on one person, you will fall apart if or when they leave. Building your life around your own passions and interests, so that you can be proud of and happy with yourself, is important. Friends will naturally come to you in time. Corny as it sounds, it's hard for other people to love you if you don't love yourself first.

You're not a lost cause, so keep trying.

I'm trying my hardest to come out of a similar situation such as yours. It's a slow process but I'm getting there bit by bit.

One of the first things I realized that got me to start digging myself out is no one likes a negative person (and I am still really negative and its hurting me), and you do have to have a great deal of self-confidence and love for yourself to be the kind of person people are attracted to.

I used to be like this, but through a series of unfortunate life events I lost that light. And now my confidence is totally trashed thanks to some scarring events with work over the past couple of years. I'm about to seek therapy because I've become too scared to be assertive because I'm afraid I'm going to explode (and I've always been a fairly assertive person). This is really messing me up.

Trust me, if you go looking for "someone to love you" while you're in your current state, you're only going to find people to take advantage of you for their own gain, not someone that you can really love and love you back. Normal people are going to avoid you, unfortunately.

There's got to be someone that still talks to you besides your therapist or family. Start there, start small and just focus on improving yourself in social situations.

FYI Cognitive Behavioral Therapy is a lifesaver and there are many books on it that include self-help techniques. I think this benefit you a lot.

Leave the house, meet some real people they are a lot of fun! life is to short to become a hermit and masturbate all day

Nobody's going to walk up to your front (or back) door and ask you out. You have to be proactive and go after what you want in life.
While you are thinking about that, go out today and instead of spending all that time alone, at home, volunteer your time at a homeless or animal shelter. It might not do you a lot of good, but at least you'll be helping others instead of moping around the house, alone.

Animals make fantastic friends too :) But I always use fiction to escape reality.
You can talk to me.

I have anxiety and depression and only have two friends. This is a normal feeling and I'm im a relationship and feel like this. But my relationship is anything but normal and seems to keep him tied to me. But don't feel bad or worry you'll have frie ds and be loved one day.

For now find something you love like a hobby, activity, or something you can focus on. These kinds of things can bring people together. If you need to don't be afraid to try something new. Eventually, if you keep trying you will probably meet people in your circles that you will share some common ground with.

I won't tell you to get out of the house and make a great future for yourself...why ? Because it's impossible for you to do that when you're drowning in depression. How can you be ambitious when you feel like you're loveless ?...I used to feel like getting out is overwhelming and quite pointless. When I get depressed, going out made me feel even more lonely because I had to stare at all those people I cannot connect with. Even facebook had that effect on me. You must know, that even if you are alone right now that does not make you impossible to love. I've found out many people would rather not deal with negative/depressed people, strangely it is us who need compassion the most. Even if that is the truth in many cases, you are not born to be left alone. There is love out there, even for the a broken individual. Whenever you are ready to go you will find it and It will not be easy but it's worth fighting for.
It's funny you mention fictional characters because I have some too, I've lived with them in my head for several years now. I often found that they give me hope and an escape from the real world...and they are awesome. I'd love to be your friend :)

Well... I think you should get a new therapist because if you feel like you just wanna die and been staying out of school the past 4 months..it kinda makes me think your therapist isn't doing a good job

Everything has already been said, but not everyone has said it. So I'll throw a short two cents in.

You should learn to live for yourself before hooking up with someone. Nobody wants to be someone's only reason for living. I'm sure there's much you have to live for and love about yourself. Spend this time finding that, then love will come.

...Hey! Let's be friends! :D

BTW Omg! You have OC's?! *gasp* Can you introduce them to me? I'll tell you mine, too!

And... I've had a hard time making friends before due to my shyness. When I'd mess up something around my friends, I'll feel really guilty.

Why not buy friendship and sex. Prostitutes can cheer you up. Get out of the house everyday. Exercise is important.

I think that it could be worse although you should commit yourself to treatment and leading a positive life

Well I don't think your not loveable...but friendship is a 2 way ... If someone reaches out to you then you sort of need to reach back.
you said you had too much anxiety to talk...they didnt reject you in a way you rejected them by not reaching back.
This is something no one can really help you with as you will need to get over your anxiety to be able to interact with other people.

I think you should live for yourself for your future ...because one day when you are able im sure you will make a good friend.