I'm gay but i guess downt want to be?

Well basically I'm gay and I know I am and that theres nothing I can do about it. But I really like this girl. We've known each other since we were 3..now we're 18. We never used to see each other but we're in many of the same classes at uni. I'm attracted to her but not sexually. One day I wanna get married (not necessarily to her) and have kids but not with a guy. But at the same time...I dont wanna get married to a woman but know deep down that I'm gay because that would just make me such a horrible person. Also I'm kind of ashamed...I think its because all through-out highschool everyone has suspected that I am gay..always denied it...and its just made me wanna curl inside even more if you know what I mean.

So are my thoughts a feelings normal?

Thank you.

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  • Angel_in_a_Glass_Dress

    "Well basically I'm gay and I know I am and that theres nothing I can do about it"

    There's your problem.

    You've already decided that you have to be locked into that label regardless of what you actually want.

    Perhaps it's time to consider that personal choice has a part in your sexuality

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  • ccjigsaw

    Try doing a woman and then doing a man. You're not in highschool anymore, those judging pricks won't be around anymore, so you're free to experiment and get it off your mind. You don't seem to 100% know your gay, or want to be gay, so maybe just maybe you're not? You're not going to know for sure until you sleep around a little.

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  • Terence_the_viking

    Then go and fuck some women

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