I'm gay but i guess downt want to be?
Well basically I'm gay and I know I am and that theres nothing I can do about it. But I really like this girl. We've known each other since we were 3..now we're 18. We never used to see each other but we're in many of the same classes at uni. I'm attracted to her but not sexually. One day I wanna get married (not necessarily to her) and have kids but not with a guy. But at the same time...I dont wanna get married to a woman but know deep down that I'm gay because that would just make me such a horrible person. Also I'm kind of ashamed...I think its because all through-out highschool everyone has suspected that I am gay..always denied it...and its just made me wanna curl inside even more if you know what I mean.
So are my thoughts a feelings normal?
Thank you.