I'm conflicted about getting gta v!
OK, here's the thing. I've never played a single GTA game before.
The above statement could probably spark panic attacks and/or gaping-mouthed disbelief in hardcore gamers all over the globe, but it's true. Because it's M-rated, and my parents knew that, it was never bought for me. Three years ago I turned 18, but I still didn't have any interest in it. I'd rather play more light-hearted games. In fact, a vast majority of my video games are ones mostly aimed at kids or teens (Mario, Ratchet and Clank, Kirby, Spyro The Dragon, Legend of Zelda, etc).
Many people are fascinated in the idea of murdering innocent people, but I'm not. However, I am aware that GTA is not that shallow. It isn't just a game where you walk around killing and raping people, like what soccer moms think. I'm not entirely sure, but I think this is an open-world game, where you can just explore to your heart's content? If so, that sounds like my kind of game. A game where you can just do whatever you feel, and explore a huge place.
But that's my problem. GTA V seems like such an awesome game, but if I buy it, it'll clash with my personality. I don't want to sound like a prude, but I would feel somewhat unclean owning a video game that lets you do all kinds of extremely immoral and illegal stuff. Sure, I have several violent games like Skyrim and Batman: Arkham City, but in these games you play as a hero or anti-hero in a fantasy environment. In GTA, you play as a criminal in a world like ours. It just doesn't feel like me to buy it, yet I want it, and I don't know. I don't think it's normal or socially acceptable to have Kirby's Epic Yarn and GTA V in the same video game collection.
So is it normal to be conflicted like this? One half of my brain is saying "Get GTA V! Stop being a prude!" while the other half is saying "Dude, you don't need that game, it's filthy, you can live without it." I literally feel both annoyed with myself for not owning it and sickened with myself for wanting to own it. I know I can obviously survive without it, but this game has received perfect scores from every reviewer, so I feel like owning it is a necessity. I think I'll end up getting it in the end, but I still feel a bit "dirty" for owning such a game after enjoying so many light-hearted games. Can anyone else relate to this?