I'm ashamed of myself..

Then don't give up. See a counselor at school about your problem and start making some headway now, you will feel better.

Recently, I've been feeling like this. That is when I read a helpful article that said "Whenever you have something that needs to be done, just do it." It mentioned that when you start thinking about whether you want to do it or not, you're more likely to postpone it or not do it which is very accurate in my case. I practiced this idea with piano practice today and felt wonderful with the progress I made from staying focused on my music.

So I say, just go to class and don't think about it. "Living life" can be as fast paced or relaxed as you want it, even if you took just one class at a time. Its still progress and then you can be happy that you're making slow but steady success.

I've had a lot going on in my life and I've been feeling the same way every semester for the past 2 years. It gets more difficult every semester for me. Last semester I made 2 B's and 2 C's, my worst college grades ever as I'm used to making A's and B's. I felt like giving up. Even though school is an escape from my problems I am increasingly becoming to depressed to go.

Take less classes, do your best and don't make lame excuses for not getting your work done on time. Do your work even if you have to turn it in late. Last semester I was a week late turning in my term paper for a very tough professor. I worked very hard on that paper and I didn't take any shortcuts. I didn't giver her any excuses. When I turned in my paper I wrote to her, "Even if you don't grade this paper, I learned a lot in your class." It was apparent by the thoroughness of my paper that I had retained much information, even though it seemed like I was slacking (not talking in class, missing class and coming in late). I should have failed the class but I received a B+, my highest grade that semester.

When you get behind it may seem like everyone is watching you and judging you, but actually everyone around you is struggling and having similar problems. Your professors are human and they understand more than you think. They know you can't always be at your best and that many of their students have problems at work and home that are magnified by their schoolwork. College is more about balancing your struggles and improving than making good grades. You do have to prove to your professors that you are capable and you care, but you can't always do that by showing up and being at the top of the class (or whatever part of the "model student" stigma you are struggling with). Leave that for the students who live in a safe bubble and have few problems. You might fail sometimes, even when you do your best, but if you do you only fail by some imperfect system's terms and not your own because you can still use your failures to succeed in the future.

As a last resort, you may be able to get a leave of absence or take a semester or two off. Just note that it's difficult to motivate yourself to get back in (what with all the shit you'll have to do to reapply) so don't do that unless it's absolutely necessary.

I've always been late for things too man... Laziness is like anything else - a habit that we have to consciously break through strength of will, replacing it with the opposite "habit"... One thing you can be assured of my friend... nobody will be late for death. GET OFF YOUR ASS! ;)

I was just like this about four years ago. I skipped classes because, basically, I was too depressed and upset and distracted about other things. Don't put too much pressure on yourself at this time, but set realistic goals each day. E.g. try and make it to a class, but if you don't then do some relevant reading instead and contact your tutor to say you're sorry you didn't make it. I actually ended up telling a couple of my tutors that I was having a hard time and they were understanding and nice about it. One of them even gave me an extension on a piece of work. Remember you're not alone... and you can feel better and you are capable of feeling better. Look after yourself too, take some extra vitamins and get enough sleep!

Oh shit... I'm going through the exact same thing. I keep on repeating the same damn cycle and I'm going spiraling downwards. I want to be motivated and do things, but I can't... Especially when everything has snowballed on me. All my classes, I slacked off, grades dropping, and now I'm skipping days off school because I'm ashamed of how others think. That adds on to the amount of work that needs to be done. I have so much work piling up, and I'm not doing any of it. I'm failing and falling. And now everything is shitty. All the things that I've managed to keep from bothering me before now does because of the weight that's afflicting me. And now people are trying to help me, and I feel guilt because I'm not getting any better. I wish I could just start over... I really can't explain myself better than how you have already explained it yourself... I guess what I'm trying to say is that you are not alone and that many people have gotten past this, so... Think positively, think of a day not far from here that you will conquer this. Think that life is short, so don't let this bother you too much, but at the same time, try and change your attitude on life. Things will get better. I'm giving myself these pieces of advice as I am to you.

People make mistakes, don't give up.

Only you can change this.

DONT GIVE UP!

I can be REALLY unmotivated at times. It's normal try to find something to motivate you.

"Don't do that because you'll feel bad"

"Only because they say I should"

"Everyone will hate you"

"Only because they're told they should"

Shame is a disgusting social control mechanism. It's conditioned into you to help stop you from doing as you please in social settings. I for one am getting closer to discarding it, I am eVoLViNgS!!!!!

You just might be a perfectionist. I have been on and if I get behind, even cleaning off my desk. OMG. I agree with some other comments. You need to go to the administration and get a counselor that just might get you on the right tract.
You or someone paid for you to be there, so you can take advantage of all resources. You won't regret it. I have been able to talk to many along the way that pointed me in the right direction so that I could function on my own. Good luck friend.

If you are this way now, you probably always will be. It isn't a crime. You might be the kind that needs a lower stress job and a more simple lifestyle. College minded people want you to have a complicated job, a complicated family and all the rest. Then one day you will want to step out in the backyard and pull the trigger.

I think about life ending every day. I certainly wouldn't mind. In fact, I'm getting more organized in expectation of being able to leave here soon. NO joke. Whether it is a move or a UFO coming to pick up passengers I want to be ready. I feel this stronger than ever right now. What the hell does a counselor going to do, they are just part of the school system and think like the rest of them.

I would have liked to have lived in a simpler time.