I'm angry inside all the time. how do i fix it?

For the most part I seem like a calm easy going person but on the inside I hate so many people, I hate myself, and I hate many small things most people wouldn't notice. I am one of those people that seem all cool and nice. But I know I am one of those people that will take sh*t day in and day out and not say anything. Than one day I'll snap and shoot everyone in the room. I thought once I graduated it would help. And it did for a little while. But when life started going down the crapper again the hate came back again. I now feel angry most of the time. The only time I'm not is when I am hanging with my friends or writing a book no one will ever read.

I'll give you some examples. Once when I was sitting at my desk at work someone walked by and spilled my drink all over my lap when his bag hit my desk. He apologized and I acted like it was no big deal but inside I wanted to slam his freaking head on the table over and over till you couldn't recognize him anymore. Or how about the time in school when 3 kids were picking on me for something. I forgot what it was now. But I flipped out and tried to run one of their hands through the table saw. I was in shop class. The teacher stopped me. Later I made a map of the school and marked down the best place to stand and the time that the most people would be there and imagined myself gunning as many people down as I could. I also tend to envy serial killers.

So I ask you what is wrong with me and how do I fix it?

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  • lovemuffin

    I think it is great that you are wondering about this and wanting to fix it. Honestly there is no easy fix but i really suggest you go to a couselor. They have helped me. It is very freeing not to feel angery all the time. If other people can manage it so can you! Give it a try and see what happens.

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  • sdc999

    Hey..:)Tell me something are you frustrated on anything? One shows such behaviour after continuous rejections, failures or when some sorrow is deeply burried inside. In such case you ought to have get rid of it. First of all you can write it down in some diary else things will be recalled by brain again and again for no reason. Second thing use punching bag and hit it untill you are not out of your anger. Dont let it go deep. Third thing is do meditation. It will help you to regain your mental self control and even it will keep you happy and satisfied from inside. I have faced the same situation for three years but after using these methods now I remain very happy and away from negatives all the time. Anger is the easiest way to loose inner strength, so dont consider the small things and forgive everyone from bottom of your heart.

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  • emilio

    I was once in those shoes x.x Now i call it hell. It's the worst thing to feel. Hate literaly eats you inside out. All i can say is this: JUST HANG IN THERE. Keep your friends close. Talk alot about it, it will cut you some loose. Good luck. If you make it through. You'll be free from this hate.

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  • Cold.2.The.Bone

    ha. sonny king sounded like a spokesperson for a diet commercial at the end. no offense. anyway, i think you should find a healthy way to vent your anger. take calming breaths, even if they make you impatient, and think the situation over. hope this helps.

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  • sonyking100

    I love making jokes and all but I suggest you do something about this now. There are many things you can do to help you re-leave this kinda of stress. You could take up some kind of sport like boxing, or taking kick boxing, lift weights, or just seek help. You need to do something to get out your anger. I was once suicidal and I thought of all kinda of ways to take myself out (this lasted for about 3 years). But I turn to body building and now I look and feel great.

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  • Sheldon

    Dood seek help quick nd dont plott out any more killing sprees on those poor innocent people

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  • shellfish

    My story goes this way: I have both ends in me - helpful, generous, altruistic, rich, very able, highly intellectual(this is the positive side). Five years beck I had hypomania episode twice once of its own and another prescription drug induced I loved that phase - excellent working memory and other memories, processing speed, read several pages of virtually hardest topics with total comprehension on computer screen, so much concentration, so much energy, so I am at the top of world, intellectually promising. I would be prompt in helping anyone. I started feeling others inferior didnt give them respect from abilities point of view. Also I had abundance of abilities that I was generous. I used to have/make strong notions/ opinion about others. Those things were immutable. Thou those may not deviate from reality but it made me adamant arrogant, dictator type(but that is always just, for good cause)but taking law into hands.

    Now, at the other end, jealous, envious, extremely angry, feeling inferior, extreme hatred, to the extent my brain stops working. This happened when the psychiatrists gave medications antagonising those neurotransmitters responsible for hypomania, but that was crucial time and the then teachers/instructors had made course difficult. I was performing poorly thou others too were but my superiority was questioned by myself. My GPA was dropped affected by career. So, I consider both doctor and teachers(professors) my enemy. I wish those defaulters, those who were responsible for giving me extreme pain be executed not the easy American(lethal injections) way but in gruesome manner. I regard them as worst enemies. I am fascinated by M16, W54. I never think of forgiving anyone when they are actually wrong(I weigh things by my intellect) and are instrument of misery; thou I may forget. This is my instinct. (they are my ideological foes like USA considers communism enemy).

    1. Is it correct to punish people?
    2. Is it correct I be on top of world (by manipulating science behind it) being highly able or is it correct to feel always inferior, jealous, being not so capable?
    3. Or is it correct to just go on tolerating whatever ill people go on doing on you without virtually protesting?

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  • TheGuruOfTheSauce

    go see a psychiatrist... a few of them

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  • chickensarethefuture

    Hmmmmmmmmmm i know you should watch some happy aand funny movies theen you'll feel better :p

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  • matthewf46

    a bullet to the head should do it

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  • schumacher

    tl;dr

    I got the jist of it, you wanna kill people, there's nothing wrong with you, dont seek mental help it'll just get worse. kill your family then run away and join a gang.

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