I'm a complete nerd freak and i hate it

Thanks a lot. I think it will really help me too. I'm trying to get into game development and stuff and I even have my own website an all already. The thing for me is Im still 15, but Ive always been more mature than my friends and others I know. They just can't seem to act in a mature manner and it drives me insane. I try to tell them, seriously, you're in highschool. Don't act like such a jerk, you know?

Sigh, even in elementary I was more mature than then people are now. It doesn't help to have a hearing problem where you sometimes hear similar words or can't hear two conversations at once. It resulted in my elementary sucking, my junior high even worse, and high school still not great. Wanted to kill myself so bad, but nobody gave the slightest fuck. People think that I'm just trying to joke or something, but I truly want to ask a question to see what the teacher said because I heard it wrong and people just are assholes and make fun of it. Teachers have generally been dicks and sided with the students too. Then it also sucks when you're muscles are screwed up so when you wanna be serious you start to smile and even when you try biting the inside of your cheeks it wont help..

I've never fit in anywhere... but I've also made alot of good friends. I think the key is confidence. I had pretty much the same deal as you, except I didn't really give a shit what people thought of me, and I guess they grew to respect that. I was a comic book geek that collected toys (and actually played with them) and I was obsessed with cartoons and quoted Star Wars as often as possible, but I wasn't ashamed of it. I openly refused to go to "cool kid" parties nor did I do any drugs or anything. I was lucky enough to find friends that also didn't fit in so we kind of huddled out eccentricities together and eventually took over the high school... culminating in me being crowned prom king which we hold in high regard as a victory for freaks everywhere. I know it sounds like the plot to every John Hughes flick ever, but it's true.... Basically what I'm saying is freak pride gets you everywhere. Have confidence in what you do and people will assume they're missing out on something and they'll be interested.

lol i was an outcast too, but not as bad as you tell it.
i was raised by my father after my ma passed when i was 5. i was always way more mature than my age group which in turn caused me to dislike most people in my grade....

highschool is a miserable time for some. thank god it dosent last forever!

I never got along with anyone in highschool. Lol, the reason of that being is because, I looked the part of an emo kid. No lie. But I have the brains of Stephen Hawking. I couldn't connect with anyone on an intellectual level. Everyone else was on the same level, intellectual wise, and I was above them. Therefore, when trying to communicate with people, everything I would say, wouldn't make sense to them. So, I just became the silent type, the weird emo kid that sat in the back of the class. I always got picked on, never had dates, never went to parties, never got invited to hang out, etc. Even now, I'm a 23 yo Aussie, and it's still hard for me to find someone to have a mesmerizing conversation with. But I honestly don't let that stop me.

Stop blaming your parents for being a complete weirdo. Your parents sound cool as hell

its okay i go thu the same thing that you do but i do have some crazy friends and they dont seem to mind that im basicly in love with star wars and comic books, they do give me some looks that say “what the hell” and “where does that come from” because my friends have never even seen star wars or have read one comic book but they are still my friends. but ya um try texting somone or even writing them a note saying hi or lets be friends, the more and more you talk to that person the more you can talk to other people

Normal. It doesnt even matter in the real world so who cares.

I think you're absolutely right - I learned later (in my late 20s) that you could do/be/look just about any way you wanted, as long as you had confidence. If you acted confident about it you could have a perfect 10 model by your side and go around acting like a complete freak at the same time...you're right; it's confidence, confidence, confidence. My thread specifically asks the question: did your parents get to have their 'enlightenment' at the expense of your emotional and social well-being? But thanks for affirming the ultimate secret to social success: confidence.