I'm a 17 year old guy that likes to wear girls clothes, is this weird?

Since I was 13 I've had an obsession with women's clothes especially heels. I can't exactly remember how this came about but I used to wear my mums clothes on a day to day basis in private. I felt comfortable and confident with myself when I did this but I was far too embarrassed to tell anybody after being bullied for my appearance for a number of years. I guess that's why I felt more confident in myself dressed as a female because in a way I saw myself as a different person.

After about a year I wanted to get some opinions about my obsession, so I downloaded an open group chat app on my phone. People had mixed feelings and thoughts about my situation, some more hurtful than others but it didn't stop me from still wearing woman's clothes.

Some time after this I got into a relationship with a girl who I felt really comfortable around. She was the first person I told about my obsession and she was very open about the idea of me being a "crossdresser". She gave me some of her clothes and shoes and she seemed interested about the subject when I brought it up. She liked wearing my clothes as much as I liked wearing hers. We even had sex a few times wearing each others clothes, it felt so natural to be myself around her.

Unfortunately she cheated on me and we broke up in 2016, she explained I wasn't acting like a boyfriend anymore because of my obsession and that it didn't help that I don't like parties or playing sports. This has a big impact on me because the person I felt most comfortable wearing woman's clothes around left me due to one of the reasons that she didn't like it anymore. I stopped crossdressing straight after this for about 4 months because I didn't want anyone else to not like me because of my obsession if they ever found out.

Within this period I became so unhappy and angry with myself because I was the cause of my breakup for no other reason than she didn't like that I was different than the average guy. I had to tell someone about how I felt so I turned to my female best friend who I had known for 2 years previous to this. She was shocked that I had never told her about my obsession but she talked to me about and comforted me. She was also open to the idea of me being a crossdresser and shared my passion with me.

After a few months she suggested that I should be more confident in myself and tell my best mate, my only male friend, about my obsession so I did. He hated me, he told me I was gay and never to speak to him again. I broke down and didn't know what to do. I knew I wasn't gay as I had previously experimented a few months before because I was curious to know if I was due to me liking women's clothing.

People I worked around day to day started to notice I wasn't myself and I kept getting asked what was wrong with me. I eventually told someone what had happened and they were very open about my situation but then never spoke to me again after I told them. This is why I'm posting my story on here. I need advice on what to do because I'm really stuck. I have no friends left to talk to about it, no one wants anything to do with me and I can't cope for much longer.

I now wear heels everyday but only in private in my bedroom, I have 8 pairs and I still enjoy doing this although I don't know if this is socially acceptable anymore because of the reactions I've had from the people I was close to.

If you took the time to read this, thank you and if you could help me that would be great.