I love to watch her videos.
Before I met my girlfriend she was a porn actress and a drug addict. We met in rehab. I'm also an addict in recovery. She is off the drugs but still holds on to the videos she made, some of them are still in the loop on the net. She tells me that porn people keep the tapes they made for auditions. The money is good in porn and she might need to go back into the biz. We both know that the two of us might not make it together. I have no problem with her past. I'm an ex con who has not been a boy scout myself. The thing of it is I get turned on watching her porn tapes. Usually when she's not around. We are trying for a healthy relationship. So is enjoying watching her doing some pretty disgusting things with other men (and women) a normal thing for me to be doing? Or is it sick?