I love the feeling of hurting things
I'm 22 and since I was little I have loved making animals suffer. I like instigating cats to scratch me so I can feel rage instead of nothing. Once I get to this point I like to squeeze, throw, hit and suffocate it. Suffocation is my favorite. I love the way it tries so hard to get my hand off its face and I do enjoy knowing it's life is in my hands. (I have never killed one)
But lately I have been hesitant... I will try to not do it anymore but it fucking eats away at me.
Does this newly found hesitation mean I can be good, I can stop doing what I do?
Or does it mean I've lost interest and need to move on?
Its not guilt or anything in fact I couldn't care less, I need advise I feel wierd about things now, don't suggest a doctor please lol I can assure you I am not a serial killer in the making :) I just like blood and fear. So somebody give me advise on how to stop this lol I wouldn't want my loved ones to find me out