I love my best friend and it's killing me...

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So here it is. I love my best friend. To me, she is beautiful, smart, and perfect. I am a self proclaimed ugly and awkward kind of guy. I have waited for upwards of 3 Years and a couple of times have told her how I feel. But it always seems that when I do that she is not ready. And when she is I'm coming out of a particularily rough patch and don't want to deal with it and end up regretting that.

There has always been a little use of drugs revreationaly, nothing serious. Maybe smoking weed at a concert with friends or just hanging out once or twice a month. However recently I have been so depressed that I have been on many many many doffernent pain killers or coke all day long just to try and forgot about her. It's as if it's my last resort to try and forget her and after some extremely long binges during the comedown I just want to kill myself.

I hang out with her almost everyday but I just can't see her the same anymore cause I know how strongly I feel. I can't even fathom at what my next move should be.

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  • kelisuevw
    14 years ago

    Honestly dude, if it's been 3 years and she's been in and outta relationship, and has never thought about you even when you've told her you love her, it's done man, just let it go, let her go, it's not gonna happen. I'm just being honest with you so you can move on sooner and so it doesn't fuck you up anymore thanbit already has.

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  • Thatguy777
    9 years ago

    Quit being friends with her. It's the hardest thing you'll ever do, and you'll miss her from years to come but if you don't do this you'll NEVER get over her, and you probably WILL kill yourself. So next time you see her lay it out for her and walk away.

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  • drtywiteboy
    12 years ago

    been there (well mostly, i've never considered myself ugly)........man i really should call billie up sometime.

    my brutally honest opinion. you hit the friend zone man. I'd let it go and chase a new girl around.

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  • l0ve2h8
    13 years ago

    kelisuevw are right.
    She wont love you anymore and you know that it was impossible for her to love you and you are hurting yourself because you think that she is worth hurting for but it is not.
    Cheer up,wake up..there are a lot of faces outside the world.Try and enjoy the world as life is short.
    She is not worth waiting.

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  • [Old Memory]
    14 years ago

    I wouldn't stress it too much
    take a step back
    take a deep breath
    and just go with it one step at a time
    :)

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  • TAK11
    14 years ago

    you should make her fall in love with you Google it ;)

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