I love a movie character more than girlfriend
If i read the title myself i would hate this person
Im a virgo
The first girlfriend i really liked broke my heart, took a long while to get over it but eventually i did.
Dated another girl to the point where i couldn't because emotionally my ex came before her.
By myself for awhile and watched teen wolf every release date and something emotional from the character Malia got to me.
It isn't what you think i've had crushes on actors before and got over it but this is something different it just hit all my weak spots.
Started dating gamers, met a girl i liked irl until she did something i couldn't trust, a friend of mine comforted me and this is the stage i'm currently at
I told my current girlfriend three times i wasn't sure if i liked her, for this sole reason of Malia, It got to the point where i couldn't be with her because i didn't like her as much as i do with the series character.
It took so long her being suicidal and depressed for me to open up with her, but i couldn't hurt her if in my mind i liked someone more then her, it isn't fair for her.
I can't get any more serious, after the third time i let her know and im back in the same situation with her, due to the reason that i actually prefer to be with her in the long run with her having the same interests as me etc
But now we got back together i feel really guilty that im still feeling the same way as i first did, i'm analytical but i tried everything to the point where i even got depressed myself lost all emotion and don't think i'll ever feel like my normal self again
I try so hard to do the right thing but it's not working. I've seen people even family do really morally wrong things and i don't want to be like them. I could use someone's help through this i feel guilty and i feel like the worst person in the world right now.