I loathe babies
I hate babies so much. Only boys though, and I have no idea why, but I hate babies with a burning passion. Their helplessness, how they cry so easily, how they're so innocent, how they're so stupid and dependent on their mothers and how they rely totally upon someone else for everything.
Ever since I was a toddler, I have wanted to hurt babies. I have wanted to pull a baby by it's hair so hard that it screams so loud as his scalp begins to tear.
I have NEVER harmed a baby however, but I want to do such cruel things to them for the sole reason of them being what they are. The only thing preventing me from doing anything in real life is the fact I have siblings, many cousins who are from all different ages, and I feel no urge to harm them.
It's only male babies who I want to torture, but I have no idea why.
I've been surrounded by people who think that (despite all the snot and vomit they're eminating) they're adorable! I get such an urge to just lean forward and bite into an infants face, and keep biting chunks out of his face. It's so disgusting and awful, but I feel satisfied by it.
I don't get it, I just hate them so much. I don't just not like them, I HATE them. I really do. I actually feel contempt when I see something horrible happen to an male infant, but I wish I didn't.
I also don't see why it's only males I hate, whereas I am completely indifferent to female babies, who I just don't want anything to do with.
It makes me feel like such a horrible person because I actually want to see male babies put in driers, or thrown out windows!
I try to look at them as people, not creatures, which has worked quite well. But at the very least, I wish I didn't enjoy seeing babies suffer, but it just fills me with unbelievable satisfaction.