I ll never be a mom

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i dont wanna have kids not becus i hate them , it is because im caring and considerate that im saving them from this morbid dark hole of life
life sucks so bad , i dont want any child to live what i lived
see what i saw , my childhood was a nightmare , my adult life is full of struggles , nothing seems to work
i hate everything , i even hate myself , i cant give love if im full of hate and darkness
i wish i can die

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  • Bluejayy
    7 years ago

    tbh you seem like a really good person for caring for your possible child. most people just pop them out like rabbits, not giving a shit whether their mentally or financially fit to raise the child, which is often why so many children have mental and physical issues.

    you should really get that depression checked out though, life is pretty shit but it isn't always doom and gloom, there are good things in life too. it would be a really sad if a smart and caring person like you were to die. we need more people like you.

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    • issamoon
      7 years ago

      thnx a lot for ur caring words , i hope ican do something helpful to myself in the future

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      • Bluejayy
        7 years ago

        it's okay, i have depression too and i know it can be difficult but we can get through this.

        look to something you love doing, it reduces stress and bad thoughts, and don't ever be afraid to talk to someone about your feelings, even if you have to do it over the phone or online.

        take small steps, and eventually you'll reach your goal. albert einstein didn't become smart overnight, it takes time to do great things :) i hope whatever your goal is in life is that you reach it!

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  • Azaman
    7 years ago

    Well. I agree with your post some, it's wise to not bring children into a world where life will be shitty... But you shouldn't hate yourself, or wish you were dead.

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    • issamoon
      7 years ago

      i have depression i cant stop this idea from growing ,im trying so hard not to

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      • Azaman
        7 years ago

        I understand, I struggle just the same... well you seem intelligent enough to know right from wrong. Don't do anything crazy, like hurt yourself. Have you seen anyone about your depression? Some professionals will try to medicate you, some will try to talk to you about why you're depressed. Whatever route you take is up to you.

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        • issamoon
          7 years ago

          iv been on meds for 3 months two years ago but i didnt like the idea of being dependant on pills

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          • Cockticus_Erecticus
            7 years ago

            Unfortunately depression is pretty much a life long condition but it doesn't mean you can't try your best to manage it. Some people live long and pretty satisfying lives so it could be said they beat their depression.

            You are already pretty sensible in that you realize just magically having kids doesn't magically make someone happy and many times just adds to the stress of an already very stressed out person.

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  • Klobez
    7 years ago

    I might be a little late but try Yoga and Meditation. It will help you get in sync with the Positive Energies around you and you will DEFINITELY feel better than right now. I have tried it myself. One more advice, read the teachings of Swami Vivekanand which will give you peace of mind and food for thought.I am sure your mind will stop nagging you and become your ally and well-wisher. You may use the internet to learn Yoga and Meditation, and also find Swami's lectures. May the Peace be with you! :)

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  • Shackleford96
    7 years ago

    You sound a lot like me, except I'm a male.

    I hate it, seeing other people with their little hellians running around tearing shit up and acting like maniacs. No discipline, no manners, no respect, nothing. Their parents are the same way. They are nothing but a drain on society. I think to myself, 'why is it fair that someone like that is allowed to bring life into this world when they so obviously don't care at all about raising them right, when someone (like myself) who WOULD want to raise kids right can not.'

    Kids can be really cool too, when they are raised right. There's no one who can show you the beauty of life, that there is still good in the world, make you believe in people, better than a child. Being a father is something I never knew I would want until I realized that I can't have it... It's really difficult not to be bitter and jealous sometimes because of this.

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    • issamoon
      7 years ago

      at least u have a desire to be a father , i think u still can do it , i wish u the best

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      • Shackleford96
        7 years ago

        Thank you for saying that. I don't know if I ever will get to be one, but I see other people around me having them and can't help but wonder what it would be like sometimes you know?

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  • _Jesus_
    7 years ago

    You should start smoking crack

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