I'll keep it simple: is it normal to consider being normal?

Obviously with my Scottish clothing and accessories, in Scotland I'll fit right in. But what about being confused and considering normality? All I'm seeing is the fixation with luxury, I don't know what I want and don't know who I am. To me normality is a luxury of an analysed life, people will question it, they'll despise it but I feel I have to be normal. Not popular though although I want to be popular. I'm considering upon reflection the benefits of being normal, being liked better, no longer scary, blissfully normal which I keep trying. No wonder I got sick in the stomach: it's from acting queer. So I'm considering a more comfortable life: being normal, is that normal?