I like to get really dirty before a shower
well I guess it's normal cos it happens when i'm depressed that i wont shower for a few days. then i realise i need a shower, but feel like it would be a waste as i'm ''not dirty enough'' yet. then i go as long as i can until i feel the filth (greasy hair, stinky, sweaty etc) of course, i dont go out like this (but sometimes the days before, just pull my hair up and wear a hat, use perfume, deoderant, etc.) I mean i get really dirty, wearing the same things for days right down to socks and panties, they get really stinky and physically feel dirty. then i take a nice long shower and deeply clean, scrub, shave, etc, every bit of my body and it feels so much better than the ''every day'' shower, IIN?