I like the sensation of external hemorrhoids?
Okay first of all I know this sounds disgusting, I myself would be but I'm a rather clean person. The thing is that I suffer from external hemorrhoids from time to time, say once every month? I keep *** clean but hey it happens to most of us! Anyway, the problem here is that every single time I get the lump in my anus the pain from it is pleasurable to me. I finger myself and press against the lump and pinch it till I get that throbbing pain feeling, I even have anal sex with my boyfriend when I get it.... Its like an external g-spot to me, I just want to have that lump forever the pain makes me happy. Is this normal?