I lied now i feel bad
Ive been with my boyfriend for 4years, when we 1st met I knew he had made another girl pregnant but he told me they had broken up.i asked the girl and she confirmed it now couple of months later I found out he had made the very same girl pregnant well I was devastated but we spoke about it and worked things out! A couple of months ago I found messages on our joint email of his baby mama,found out they never actually broke up and they've been together for almost 7years now,I was was so angry so I lied to him and told him I was pregnant just to spite him (which I now know it was a big mistake) him and this girl came to me to tell me that they togethers for the sake of the kids,the girl said she won't break up with him but she will not fight him on being with him because clearly I make him happy! Things have been going well
And now I realize that what I did was a very big mistake..i wanted to hurt him then but now it's actually hurting me! I also now know that I don't wanna be caught in the situation where I'm fighting to be in someone's life just because of a kid! I thought of telling him I miscarried but that's just not me,I'm not a liar! I wanna tell him the truth but my boyfriend can be so brash and knowing him he loves kids so much he might not even forgive me
Please help