I know that masturbating so that women can see me is not normal

I have been jacking off in public since I was 16 I am now 40. If you met me you would never in a million years think that I would ever do such a thing, but I do. It is two sided. I love to do it, and I hate it at the same time. I have had so many different reactions from so many women, and I think that has a lot to do with me continuing to do it. I have had women reach in my car, and start jacking it for me. I have had that to happen a few times. I have had women to aet and watch me. I have 2 women to actually get in my car and fuck my brains out. I have had many I mean many to act like that my dick wasn't hanging out hard as a rock 5 inches around 9 inches long with veins popping out about to explode , and sometimes even shooting my load right in front of them. I have had several to actually smile and say hello as they were walking by. Many have looked at it and turned their head, some said oh my God and go the other way. Many have told me they were going to call the police. Some have screamed you sick pervert. I have had some to tell me that doesn't make them excited to see a man beating off it makes them sick. So basically I keep going back to doing the same thing over and over, with the desire to know what the reaction is going to be. Tellme what your reaction would be. Remember this. I would never hurt anyone, and I have never had any desire to rape a woman or do I ever do it where any kids might be. Just respond and tell me what you think. I am hoping that I will get the same amount of pleasure out of talking about it on a forum where I can get people to respond and tell me what the would do, and what they think about it, I will be getting the same thing out of it that I am looking for, and that is what kind of reaction you are going to have. Thank
everyone for tasking the time to tell me what you think about it.