I keep wishing myself to suffer from a mystery illness, iin?

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I honestly don't know what is wrong with me. This isn't the first time that I've done this either. I do have some health issues, but none of them are like what I am wishing on myself, that I know of. Basically, I keep fainting about developing a mystery ailment that causes me pain and discomfort, makes me have something akin to a spasm or a seizure, makes me vomit blood, leaves marks on my body, puts me on the brink and death but doesn't kill me and makes me look so gaunt and sick.

This is bizarre. When I first started to fantasize about this, my life wasn't good. However, my life has greatly improved. I'm healthier than I have ever been and I want to live a very, very long life. So, why then am I desiring this? Is this normal?

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  • noid
    9 years ago

    Go volunteer in West Africa? You're welcome: )

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      9 years ago

      I'm not crazy.

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      • noid
        9 years ago

        But you want a horrible disease!

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  • mslane88
    9 years ago

    It could be Munchausen. If you are young it is probably just a desperate need for attention.

    I wanted to ask what do you mean by you keep fainting about developing a mystery ailment?

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      9 years ago

      I have no desire to share about the illness in my fantasies. I am very reluctant and try to keep it a secret yet, rumours still spring up around it.

      I do have some conditions in real life. With one of them (we have no idea if it is fatal or not), I'm hoping that it isn't. I'm not keen on telling others about my health, whether it be current or past conditions. I am a very private person. I don't like the idea of people thinking that I am desperate for attention. Etc.

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  • Gideon1997
    9 years ago

    I'm not a doctor but i can see something is wrong with you. Go see a doctor to help you with whatever is wrong with you.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      9 years ago

      It's just a fantasy. I believe that it is steaming from my desire to have a dominant in my life. Also, in my beliefs, life and death take an interesting stance. I've always been interested in life, death and rebirth. I think that is a part of it too. I don't believe in seeing doctors, especially therapists.

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      • Gideon1997
        9 years ago

        It's just a fantasy? Normal people don't have fantasies of horrible illnesses.

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  • Asstastics
    9 years ago

    Your a bit suicidal, that's all.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      9 years ago

      No, I'm not. Masochistic, yes.

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  • Anonymous Post Author
    9 years ago

    It disturbs me a bit at just how many replies this post received that completely misunderstood my post. That's people for ya.

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    • Asstastics
      9 years ago

      That completely misunderstand what about the post? The intent? The feeling? The details? Your post leaves several open ended questions. Ask your high school English teacher to explain argumentation to you. You need to become a better writer.

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  • [Old Memory]
    9 years ago

    do anything to yourself you like , you are a living free human

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      9 years ago

      There's nothing that I could do. I'm starting to think that this is steaming from my leanings to the BDSM lifestyle. I want to be controlled and fantasing about a mystery illness is the control that I desire. My unfurled desires are manifesting themselves in this way.

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