I keep blowing him off?
I've posted another story about how i like my boyfriend, but at the same time, i don't want to be with him at all. Well, i am absolutly terrified i will lose him as a friend if i break up with him, and it's really screwed up to break up with him over text. So, i constently blow him off. I try not to talk to him, and i try to sneak by him without him seeing me. I avoid kissing him and looking him in the eye. I feel like a terrible person, but i don't want to hurt him. I think it would be better if he broke up with me and get it over with. And actually, most of the time, i don't even mean to blow him off. I hardly notice that he's around me until he trys to talk to me.
Is this normal?
And am i a horrible person for doing this?
And can you give me ways to get him to break up with me pleaseee?