I keep a lock of hair of my mom to cope when she passes away

My mother is still only 58, but she told me to pray for her and remember her when she dies. That really hit me and made me realize how she could die at any second.

She likes it when i play with her hair and she tells me it helps her sleep. I've been playing with her hair ever since i was 5. I'm in senior high school currently.

She uses the same comb as me. I'd always find clumps of hair tangled in it. I used to just take it off and throw it in the bin, but lately i began collecting it and keeping it in my drawer.

I'm also aware of this mourning tradition people had in the 19th century, where they'd get enough hair to intertwine it and turn it into a bracelet or just simply put a lock of hair in a cameo-like necklace or a ring. I'm considering to collect enough to do all three and keep some more locks to spare if she passes away anytime soon, i thought it was rather endearing.

I'm pious and i don't particularly fear death for myself, but i believe seeing my mother pass away would be very difficult, and keeping locks of her hair that i used to caress might ease my pain when it happens.