I induced a period so my boyfriend would not try to have sex with me?
It's bad to say but we would "get together" after much drink and all I really fancied going back to my boyfr's place was a sleep but he would just suddenly not even put but shove his hand down my pants (while i'm fully clothed and not indicating arousal) but this would physically turn me on, as he touched certain parts; so I'd consent to sex even though coerced and after the first few minutes I just wish him to either stop or just get it over with and it all doesn't feel right in the cold light of day.
On a night we drank, for quite a few months, I rationalised it to myself by having him as my boyfriend; as it somehow makes it right....not sure why.
Some times I knew it was coming but got to occasionally induced my period (by taking my pill break earlier but we used condoms) so he'd not touch me and it worked; which is great.
But I never loved him and still carrying on with him and rather than just letting him f*** me, I also tried to enjoy it; I have learnt how to with ease! - still can anyone put narrative to this weird mess? put labels to this all so I can make sense of it? What could or should I do instead?
*Feedback appreciated but I will REPORT trolls*
Yes, that's fine! | 2 | |
Occasionally I guess. | 0 | |
Something's wrong here. | 5 | |
Are you that desperate for him not want to touch you? | 0 | |
No, WTF?! | 2 |