I have very powerful homicidal urges

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Lately I have realized how disgusting humans are. I now obsess constantly about murder and huge homicides. I imagine and fantasize how I can get away with offing people with poison or guns I could get off the street. Humans fill me with a overwhelming anger, they are all so selfish nobody is a real friend that will stay in contact with you regularly. I am alone constantly and have noone that tries to stay in my life but they don't appreciate when I am good to them or try to be friends I just want people to stay around. The sounds of peoples voices infuritates me, hearing about how they betray others, cheaters, gangbangers, rapists. Its like i have these voices in my head that sound like me but they are NOT me. I do feel like there are people trying to poison me sometimes and I am extremely aware of everything around me. I feel like people speak in code when I overhear them talk. I feel like there is something very wrong with me. I am recovering from iv methamphetamine addiction with about 3 months off after a 3 day relapse. Im not sure how to see good in humanity anymore, when I see people I dont like because they are selfish and don't give a fuck about people so they deserve punishment. I feel like itd be so empowering to watch the skull fragments fly everywhere from a gunshot or a mallet. I hate people there are very few i care about anymore, people take kindness and love as a way to manipulate others I'm sick of the way society is plummeting and peoples morals towards other human beings with good hearts is going away. I want a peaceful society sometimes I think it'd be great if the government sent out death squads to exterminate these people. I know the government has thought control devices and they are causing all of the decline in humans but I think other humans read my mind because sometimes when i think of stuff they will later say it or mention something related to it. I feel like I'm rambling or not making sense does anyone relate to this. Can you relate to wanting to exterminate alot of the human population?

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  • [Old Memory]
    5 years ago

    I can relate to a bit of this, because I have difficulty seeing good in others and it's related to being around a lot of violence. You're prior drug addiction likely made this issue worse and people on drugs get in bad environments. If you were in situations where you witnessed murders it would make sense that you think about it.

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  • DandeLION777
    5 years ago

    I feel that way everyday but the thought of taling some kids dad or mom stops me

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  • SeekNPlay
    5 years ago

    I hate humans too, fuck this humanity

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  • Mark92
    5 years ago

    Not normal, see a therapist before you end up hurting someone...

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  • farkelu
    5 years ago

    As a drug addict, you have been probably been associating with the dregs of society for a very long time, and your vision has been impaired. When one sees the world from the very bottom, we tend to lose our perspective. I would strongly advise you get into a good 12-step program and work it, as well as avail yourself of any psycho-theraputic program to which you have access. You need some serious help.

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  • Hotdogsaregross
    5 years ago

    You would be worse and would be even more disgusting than most of the people you’re complaining about if you carry out your urges to kill people. I will agree that American society is plummeting bad but killing is not the answer. Your drug addiction is what’s making you paranoid too I believe.

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  • globalPastryAlliance
    5 years ago

    As much as you might hate them, you don't have the right to take another human being's life. Watch videos on liveleak of morons getting killed and laugh about it instead.

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  • Nickvey
    5 years ago

    people avoid you because you have mental illness. and you are wrong about humans, they are loving and caring. all you see is the evil among us. what you really hate is Satan's work and the evil he does using mankind as his tool. you know satan, you are working for him.

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    • Anonymous Post Author
      5 years ago

      Outside the internet I am extremely calm and have a watm personality but I am letting it go because my psychopathic personality uses more logic than the other guy I can be and not get hurt but turn it around and punish people

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