I have to do everything symmetrically
I have to do everything symmetrically! For instance, if I'm lying in bed at night and I have to scratch an itch on my big toe, then I'll have to scratch that same spot on my other big toe or it won't feel 'right' and I'll go crazy with anxiety. Same thing with my ears: if I have to take out an earplug during the night and scratch inside my ear, then I'll have to take out the other earplug and scratch inside my other ear, or else it will immediately start itching anyway...what the hell is this? I've been doing it all my life and it doesn't make any sense at all.