I have to always start my day by listening to music

I know that everyone loves music and I have even read about studies which say that music is good for mental health but the way I listen to music ... it's certainly not normal because I have to start my day by listening to music and on days when I don't do this, I feel like something is missing or for example if i had a bad day i blame it on not listening to music that day.

Now, I don't think whether this has some kind of link with my problem but I did not have such a good chilhood. Sometimes I even feel a little depressed at times.

When I listen to music I feel incredibly elated and mostly while listening, I start dreaming about the person I'd like to be and the world i'd like to live in and maybe that's why I feel the urge to listen to music again and again to self satisfy myself.

Another thing I'd like to add is that, I'm a BIG idealist. I mostly spend the whole day dreaming about stuff that isn't there and suddenly, when I come to terms with my reality I start getting anxious.

hope there are some answers out there!