I have sadistic thoughts
When i think of a relationship i think'i wish he hit her' or 'i wish they break up and her violates her but she still loves him' and stuff like that. Its like, i want to be hurt also in a relationship and abused and stuff but also to be loved? I find it really strange because i come from a religious background and i am religious...why wont these thoughts leave me?
P.s: whenever theres abuse there also has to be double the love...no love= no sadistic feelings. Is it normal to think this way?