I have only ever loved fictional characters
I have been thinking and recently I realized that I think I am only attracted to/fall in love with fictional characters. Mainly anime characters.
I have liked very few boys throughout the years. I am 18 now and I have only ever liked around 5 real boys. Where I know it's more normal to have a lot of crushes when your growing up. But I have been liked so many anime characters. Pretty much any good anime, there is character that I am attracted to.
I love romance stories but in real life I hate it and love is just weird.
I guess what got me thinking about this is that I currently have a boyfriend who I liked and then he asked me out. And now that we have been going out I don't like him anymore. I don't want to tell him though. His actually in the Navy and he is deployed at the moment. But I don't like him and I don't want to tell him. And then I realized that I have never liked a real person as much as I like some of the fictional characters. I am more in love with Itachi from Naruto than I have ever been with a real person.
It just seems really weird. I mean it's been this way ever since I was 13, it's not like it's been a short amount of time. I mean I guess 5 years is not that long? But to be in love with the same fictional character? I am kinda the type of person who pushes people and reality away but..idunno maybe I am just crazy.