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I simply don't, and I do not know if there is a way to change it. It's incredibly frustrating for myself and others as it makes things near impossible to accomplish simply out of the futility of my beliefs.
In my opinion, life is a grand adventure that should be lived to the fullest before one's corpse is nothing more that rotting flesh.
On the contrary there is many things in life I enjoy, and I am quite content in my living. I simply have no appreciation for things in life and I do not associate value to said things because of it. So is why I very seldom do them as I don't receive pleasure from them on a physiological level, mentally though I do find said activities stimulating intellectually (in correspondence to my beliefs) but do I think there is value in those activities not really not in the grand scheme of things. In the now sure but I just don't live there unfortunately. Don't have the energy, don't care enough.
The only purpose in life is to create your own purpose whatever that may be.
Indeed and I follow this all most daily through my consistent dedication to my life's work. Which is a communal based collaboration project utilising infrastructure technologies and modern constructs to alter society for the betterment. However when you have not the natural reward system most others have when they do good things, they become tedious. And such act is more harmful then not, it stresses me out, causes anxiety to the point I just can't do anything anymore. So I guess I don't see much purpose in my life's purpose. Is that depressing yes, am I depressed about it no I could die at any time and not care any less and or more. But it is frustrating in contrast to how others live. Because when I try to be like that I just crash, but on my pace I just fall so behind the crowd. I become more of a social outcast as people see me as throwing my life away not doing any thing. To the point they just gave up on me, my family is gone unless I came back and was actually on school campus and doing it for a few months so I showed dedication or if I had a fancy job that I was stable with. So I will never see them again because I have nothing to prove even when I do become monetarily competent after how they've been. As for friends that's cause of health issues no one likes to hang out with the cripple lol.
You don't have to be sad to be depressed. Apathy is a form of depression as well.
Right on, I did not know that. But it indeed makes sense. Perhaps I was taking it personally, but from a objective view of depression where it is any view point that lowers or depreciates ones existing beliefs then you're absolutely correct.
Modern propaganda, and chatter of depression paints of a picture for me of someone in a corner or a bed for weeks on end. Curled up in a ball contemplating of suicide, or actively utilising self-harm techniques to further ones life (give incentive to move forward).
But clearly we can extrapolate there is many forms of depression such as functioning, and non-functioning. And from there a shit load of sub-types can be derived. But I shall regress. And simply thank you for improving my existing knowledge base.
Right on, I did not know that. But it indeed makes sense. Perhaps I was taking it personally, but from a objective view of depression where it is any view point that lowers or depreciates ones existing beliefs then you're absolutely correct.
Modern propaganda, and chatter of depression paints of a picture for me of someone in a corner or a bed for weeks on end. Curled up in a ball contemplating of suicide, or actively utilising self-harm techniques to further ones life (give incentive to move forward).
But clearly we can extrapolate there is many forms of depression such as functioning, and non-functioning. And from there a shit load of sub-types can be derived. But I shall regress. And simply thank you for improving my existing knowledge base.
Such as life has no value, and I have no appreciation of anything. As such I receive no pleasure from any form of action, and therefore doing anything from brushing my teeth to making sure I eat enough a day is a challenge all in its own.
The loss of hope yes indeed that does sound like a great association to this feeling. For hope is blind, it is why people wake up. Why they think everything is going to be ok. But we both know that is not the truth, you just die over and over again in every capacity. We've both been to mars all ready, explored the oceans, climbed the highest mountains. We're gods among these blind fodder. There is no need for hope, no need for fear we're all but drowned children awaiting for the last air bubble to seep to the surface as we're reborn plunged back into abyss of hell as the pressure once again is slowly alleviated into our inevitable rotting and festering demise. And with productivity the time lapse of release grows shorter, so we rather sit and await the demise openly as to watch these petty fools play their games of risk, and monopoly.
This sounds like clinical depression with apathy. Maybe you two need meds?
lol depression comes in all forms I know but I feel I am in a depression rather depressed. I believe in time when the right elements are available I will find joy again, just the resources are not there at this time.
Apathy though yeah you hit the hammer on the nail boss, right on. ZING! xD uhm all so memory loss which causes anxiety, and addiction tendencies mainly in the form of binge eating now, been working on my co-dependency issues lately improving but I need to rebuild my social skills.
I just sit at home in this paper work all day so I have not much to talk about aside from my thoughts which are scary, or very boring. So who knows what the future has to hold!
Oh oh and I can't take any meds cause of the addiction issues. Too bad too sad for moi!