I have homosexual fantasies but not attracted to a man

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Like most men, I'm constantly thinking about sex. When I was in middle school and younger, before I even knew what sex was I would think about girls my own age and imagine what I'd want to do with them in bed and get very excited. As I've gotten older (27 now) I fantasize less about women and more about men. But not real men, these perfect men I imagine in my mind. 6'2" smooth tan skin, nice abs, pecs, chiseled arms, round bubble butt with perfect hair and perfect smile with bright white teeth. Complete with a nice about 7" member. And must be circumcized in this fantasy. Honestly every night I'm fantasizing about making out with, giving and receiving head and intercourse from these hypothetical men and it turns me on so much. I so badly want to try gay sex in real life slightly more so than straight sex which I love. I am 100% down to go gay tonight and not the least bit ashamed or embarrassed. Problem is the thought of having sex with any guy I know or even see in real life, even guys that are considered to be really hot by everyone else, disgusts me. I don't even find "attractive" men attractive in real life. The thought of even kissing one of the guys I see in real life grosses me out. I watch gay porn a lot trying to deal with these desires and some of the guys are okay but most of it turns me off. I Google images "hot shirtless men" or "naked underwear models" lol and hardly any of them turn me on. Less than 1 in 100 of the men online will turn me on but every now and then I see a naked dude in porn that I couldn't wait to drop on my knees for that instant. On the other hand I always see girls that I find attractive and would love to make out with even if it goes no further just cuz I find them to be pretty. So if I am in fact just straight cool can I please stop having these gay fantasies every single night and morning. And if I'm going to be bi or gay can I please just find I guy I'm attracted to so I can have sex with him. Having these unrealistic fantasies and unfulfilled desires is really frustrating. I've tried gay dating/hook up apps but yuck. I'm 27 and still don't have my sexuality figured out. Is it normal?

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  • mrydan28
    6 years ago

    Your post is too long, I have add. I'm gonna say yeah its OK, same Thing here

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  • Aries
    6 years ago

    suck my cock

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  • Leon67
    6 years ago

    I've always been a very sexual person with a sex drive too high for my own good. The first time I saw naked girls in porn was the biggest turn on in the world but that's when I was 13. Since I grew up I don't really need porn. I prefer past memories w girls or my imagination but now and then I watch lesbian porn and I get into almost all of it. As soon as I see a naked dude I'm turned off unless he looks perfect. These days I'm constantly looking for gay porn tho cuz I'm desperate to fulfill these overly intense gay urges but it takes me so long to find two guys that I think look just okay.

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