I have gay thoughts just to torture myself

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I am not gay at all. I know this; there is no question about it. I have never felt sexually attracted to any person of my own sex, ever, period. The problem is, sometimes I'll be sitting there talking with some random dude I know and the image will pop into my head of me giving this guy fellatio (oral sex). Now let's be very clear here: I would NEVER give ANY guy fellatio. It's not like I'm sitting there thinking, "Oooo...wouldn't it be nice to give this guy fellatiooo..." NO - I only fantasize that way about chicks, and I can get a hard-on just sitting there talking to some nice tight-ass sexy chick, looking at her little lips and breasts, etc. But thinking about performing fellatio on this guy just creates a momentary nasty feeling that totally contradicts whatever the hell this guy and I are actually trying to get done together, like work or play music, and I usually just ignore it and move on. It still irks me something awful, though. I suspect I may be thinking these thoughts just to feel paranoid about being gay even though I'm not. What do people think of this? Is this in any way normal?

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  • ihopeyoudie
    14 years ago

    yeah prolly paranoia. or maybe the guy you are talking to is boring. maybe you just have low self esteem sometimes and picture yourself getting fucked in the worst way possible. just because you think of something doest mean you want it. i just pictured donkeys taking over the world and enslaving humans and peeing intheir mouths. that doesnt mean im into slavery or bestiality.

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  • Volhv
    14 years ago

    maybe you're just so afraid of being gay you get really paraboid

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  • sunshinekitty
    15 years ago

    Maybe ur just crazy, jk. i think its normal. maybe ur on ur bay to the bisexual train & that's just the beginning.....hey idk, but i might be right! FIRST DREAMS, THEN DESIRES, THEN EXPERIMENTATION....THEN ITS ALL U! :P
    :3<3

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