I have an unexplainable interest to abandoned buildings?!
So here's the thing - I live in an out-of-town HUGE quarter with A LOT OF blocks. Our quarter is surrounded by all kinds of old and already abandoned buildings used for many different things (factories, cowsheds, etc) and whenever I see one of them I feel something unexplainable like a combination of lust for discovering them and fear of them (because they're scary af lol) and it makes me go to them and look at them for hours thinking what it looked like when it was still working, why is it abandoned and even entering in them and looking around (which is pretty dangerous). I have no idea why I'm so passionate about these forsaken years ago premises. It's like a non-sexual fetish or something idk xdd Sometimes when I'm coming back home from somewhere and I walk by them but don't have time to enjoy them I get SUPER upset and even start crying a little bit. Is that normal? Is there a scientific explanation for this? Is it even something real or just something i've made up in my mind? THANK YOU!