I have a phobia of pregnancy/child birth
I have this strong phobia of pregnancy.
I do take care and use protection, but if my period is over 3 days late, common sense is taken over by my dominating panic that I might have conceived. I am beyond terrified of this, I become an emotional wreck because not only can I not financially mind a child, but just the thought of the actual conceiving is absolutely HORRIFYING and makes me sick to my stomach.
I can best describe the thought of pregnancy is like that of being implanted by an alien, as in the film 'Alien', where a parasite that you do not know about is growing inside you, and feeding off you and trying to suck the life out of you, which it does once it's born, if it doesn't kill me in birth, it will suck my life away in it's living.
I do not understand how other women strive and pine for the feeling of pregnancy and dream about the day they will give birth, as I think newborn babies look like something out of this planet, with their hanging and podgy necks and their muffled and strained sounds and toothless gums.