I have a gorgeous bf but i think i might be gay

Couldn't say, I have always sexually aroused women, a lot lol. But the last girl I was with, not so much, and she told me before we ever did anything she wasn't really a sexual person and didn't really get super turned on like I do.

You might just be wired like that, and its totally valid, I think most people know what they like, and also think that sexualities nowadays have all these rules given to them, like you have to be ____ and can't just like whatever you like in that particular moment without attaching it to some identity that doesn't go away, even when you feel different.

If you fantasize about another girl and wanna fuck her go for it, if you masturbate and think about women that's maybe a sign, he also could be gorgeous but not the type that gets you off.

Like for me if a girl is beautiful but her butt isn't really big I'm just not going to get turned on even though I can appreciate her body as gorgeous.

I think most of us have endured some form of sexual trauma, that even just being touched inappropriately, or being pressured into something, or even just having an unsatisfying sexual experience can make it harder to then have one in the future. So certainly abuse could turn you away from something you'd otherwise just enjoy. But I'm an optimist, if that's the case though, you know we don't have time machines so you just gotta keep trying, i've got no useful advice there, and am so sorry that happened to you, you didn't deserve it.

I think the worst thing you can do though, is try or expect to be turned on, a lot of what fuels sexuality is expectations, so going into it and trying to not judge how you're feeling is probably the best approach imho

You'll never know until you try it.

Talk to your boufriend about how you're feeling (hopefully, he's understanding), and experiment with a trusted female friend.

It could be both, but I reckon you need to sort out your sexual abuse issue: if you haven't had counselling for it, you need to do that.

If it happened when you were younger, it's normal and not uncommon for survivors of child sexual abuse to cut off from their genital sensations, even to the extent of not knowing they're aroused or having an orgasm. If you have vague patches or full memory gaps about sex, that would be a clear indicator that you're going "somewhere else" in your mind rather than experiencing what's actually happening.

As well as this, you may well be bisexual, and that's normal.

I think so.

Maybe its the type of man you are with? I wonder if these are metrosexual or similiar types. Maybe you need a rough type or some other type of man?