I have a fear of touch even though nothing bad has happened.

Alright, I get it, everyone goes through some shit in their life that fucks them up bad enough to make them uncomfortable with hugging their five year old sister. But, nothing has happened to me to warrant being the way I am. I haven't been abused or raped, touch just makes me highly uncomfortable. I don't like it, at all. I KNOW some people are just like that but, ten years ago I would have been all for hugs and somewhere in that ten year gap something went zap in my brain and I became less and less comfortable with being close to people in general. I build up walls and don't even let my closest friends know most of my thoughts and opinions on what I had for lunch that day. Let alone the innermost thoughts and secrets everyone says you have to tell people in order to emotionally bond with them. I just... I don't even know what's wrong. I want to but, I couldn't even talk to a fucking therapist about it. Is this normal or am I some sort of psychological screw up?

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  • Ellenna

    Well if you're not happy with this aspect of yourself, it's not going to change by itself, is it? Either accept it and the loneliness & isolation of the consequences or get yourself to a therapist. What's with the "couldn't talk" to one? Your lips are sewn together?

    You could of course just walk in and show the counsellor what you've written here, that'd be a start, or you could try the less threatening option of a phone crisis line.

    It's up to you ........

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  • Babybloodknuckles

    Psychological screw up!!

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  • sourgrapes

    No its not bloody well normal...

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  • bemused

    I'm pretty much in the same boat as you, even a friendly touch puts my hackles up. I'm not sure if its normal but I would expect it to be relatively common? If its causing you any distress thats when it's a genuine issue that possibly requires you to see/speak to someone about it. I'm not an expert or anything though, good luck.

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