I have a fear of touch even though nothing bad has happened.
Alright, I get it, everyone goes through some shit in their life that fucks them up bad enough to make them uncomfortable with hugging their five year old sister. But, nothing has happened to me to warrant being the way I am. I haven't been abused or raped, touch just makes me highly uncomfortable. I don't like it, at all. I KNOW some people are just like that but, ten years ago I would have been all for hugs and somewhere in that ten year gap something went zap in my brain and I became less and less comfortable with being close to people in general. I build up walls and don't even let my closest friends know most of my thoughts and opinions on what I had for lunch that day. Let alone the innermost thoughts and secrets everyone says you have to tell people in order to emotionally bond with them. I just... I don't even know what's wrong. I want to but, I couldn't even talk to a fucking therapist about it. Is this normal or am I some sort of psychological screw up?