I have a constant powerful urge to kill, need some advice?

You aren't necessarily evil but you lack normal feelings. It's not what you think that matters but what you act on.

Sociopath. Go join the army and kill some members of ISIS. Then you'll be killing evil people, at least.

You are a Psychopath/Sociopath with homicidal urges. You should accept your urges as it simply is a part of who you are, your personality. Any attempts at medicine or therapeutic sessions will make you just feel worse. I advise for you to not kill anyone because it isn't too hard to suppress these urges. At least from this personality trait you are able to think more logically as you aren't as indoctrinated by society and their moral codes. If you really do want to kill someone to the point that you would go insane if you won't, make sure to plan everything out so that you don't get caught. Read up on modern day security methods too, CCTV being the obvious one.

Hey, what's up? Don't feel too bad, there are plenty of people in the same boat as you are. Not knowing what to do about something that keeps bothering you is really hard to handle. But the cool thing is, you came to the right place. We're here to help.

You must make a pact with yourself: to never do the things that you keep telling yourself to do, if you know that they are bad. That is the first step; it's like making a vow with yourself. You must agree to never enact the spontaneous thoughts that you receive, less you end your own life and disappoint those that you know care about you--think about how they would feel. It would be a living nightmare for them. This is a very important step.

Secondly, seek professional help. I'm not talking about websites on the internet, though they help in their own way, but a professional 'listener' won't judge you immediately without hearing all the facts, and, won't divulge anything to your family; and that's really important.

Thirdly, these thoughts, these voices, are from a part of you that needs attention. I'm not talking about you who gets to go do stuff, try on new clothes and stuff like that, I'm talking about an 'inner' you. This person...is almost like a 'separate' person--some religions say that this is exactly what these so called evil vision come from--and, that this person needs 'your' reassurance. Like, you need to start talking to this inner person, making sure, he or she is caught up on things, make sure that he or she is being introduced into the world along with your own self. This is very important. Because, if you ignore this person, you start seeing this inner person throw temper tantrums, start giving you evil thoughts...but it's only because this inner person wants attention; no, it needs attention; and that's a good thing.

Basically, you have two people inside you--yourself, and another 'deeper' person. Yourself is out in the real world, while your inner self is buried within. Don't smother this inner person, or ignore it, because you need it. Have you ever heard of intuition? Well, that's where it comes from, this inner person, who is able to see what is 'not' seen by you in the distracting realtime world. This inner person looks out for you, tells you about people and things that are hidden, gives you insight, and so on...

I know this might sound weird to you. There is a lot of stigma in this country about trying to understand our inner selves, and that leads to a lot of sad and hateful people not knowing who they are, and what they want in their lives. But it's only because they've not been taught to see inwardly, as well as outwardly. You can do this! And, along the way, you'll find out so much about yourself, what you can 'see' about people and things without even trying, and, most importantly, what you can pass on to others about what you've learned. Because I know, I've had my own thoughts, visions, and have had to face them to find out that it's only because I wasn't paying attention to them that they were turning out bad. Pay attention, and show others how to do the same thing, and watch yourself change.

I know more than one person who think like that.

take a martial arts class get your aggression out

If you were to begin with yourself, you would save everybody a whole lot of bother.

Why don't you take a gun, put it into your mouth, and shoot your brain out the back of your head in 100 different pieces?

Well, you may never been officially diagnosed with a pathological condition, but its apparent from what your describing that you possess multiple ones, since you've never been treated, the conditions may have aggravated.

If this is indeed a real issue for you, then you should expose it to a specialist on the field. A professional will not judge you, it will analyse you, and treat you accordingly through psychotherapy and possibly medicine.

I'm gonna ask you a few questions. Have you ever killed an animal? Describe what triggers those urges and what have you done so far when it comes to violence, like for example getting into physical and verbal confrontations.

Do you have an history of drug, alcohol or pharmaceuticals abuse? Any mental illnesses in your close relatives? How old are you and what's your job and degree? I'm sorry to bother you with these questions, but they are necessary as you should understand.

To kill is easy, the difficult part is too live with it.

Try joining the army. Unless you are completely against the idea of killing then I would suggest go see a doctor.

Wow, it must suck that you are basically living a lie. I find it baffling how you could possibly like yourself. You should fucking hate yourself! Now, I'm not saying you should kill yourself, but at least you would kill yourself before harming anyone else. Maybe if you hate yourself enough, then you can change, but I honestly can't imagine living with no empathy.

Actually most murders that were committed by a stranger with no motive that are done right never get solved

https://youtu.be/02vNoeG_OeM?t=10s

I certainly relate to that. But I can only advise you with what I know for sure, one day you'll make a decision.

I often feel homicidal but for personal reasons towards certain people. I have no desire to kill anyone randomly or without good reason.

You sound like the average woman.