I hate to look forward to things. i don't like to get excited?
Like if I'm at school at a friday and suddenly the thought of weekend and pizza hits me. (I usually get pizza at fridays) and I just get frustrated and think about something else. I mean, weekends and pizza are good things. I like it... But I hate looking forward to it. Not because I can't wait for it, but just because I feel stupid being happy for no real reason.
If someone goes "Bet you can't wait to get that new computer" or something, I just go "Shut up..."
Maybe it's because that I'm afraid that the things I am looking forward to won't be as good as expected, but I think it's more than that.
So generally; If I plan to do something I really want to do and I get excited about it, I feel stupid and switch my mind off or think about something else. I don't know why, it's not normal to hate being happy is it?