I hate texting and get in a bad mood when i get texts

I hate texting, but also hate calls, and almost also hate talking to people in general. It’s NOT because I have social anxiety, I did when I was younger but it’s rare for me to get anxiety now (21). It’s ironic because I’m an introvert and even though I’ve been alone most of my life and genuinely love to be alone, I get lonely, but even when people text me I want to throw my phone across the room. Idk what’s wrong with me because its like I want relationships but resent them at the same time. There’s people I’m close to but few and that includes family members. I literally go for weeks, months, or sometimes a year, to respond to people’s texts. If I do respond sooner it’s probably automatically and rare in comparison. I crave plans at times but when people try to hang out with me constantly I genuinely get annoyed and mad, everybody’s on do not disturb because I can’t fucking stand notifications. There’s probably one person who isn’t maybe two. I’ve blocked many people mostly aquaintences and first dates, just because they try to hang out with me every single day after or can’t handle not being able to consistently back and forth text with me, and I can’t fucking handle it

Thought I might add that I can enjoy talking to people sometimes, and I strike up conversations as well. But I’m usually quiet and don’t have a lot of emotional energy